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PSA: Go To Sleep Yo!

2012-01-20T10:04:00.000-08:00

Turn Around

2012-01-08T20:01:00.000-08:00

Thought of the evening. God really does turn things around when you need it. CONFIRMED!

U.N.I. Feature

2011-12-23T15:03:00.000-08:00

Check out who is rockin' U.N.I. Philly-based Christian rapper Ambassador is rocking our U.N.I Classic Design with a red hoody in his latest video Pop Pop Pop. No the red hoody is not U.N.I apparel just yet, but be on the look out as we expand our line. @uniclothingco we are living our dreams. Peace.Life.Love.

Believe

2011-12-16T07:46:00.000-08:00

I'm very convinced that I'm approaching a season or at least entering into a time in my life where I can either be catapulted or held back from reaching success all based upon my ability to believe. I know that may sound elementary. Everyone that has ever accomplished something great had to believe in it first. For me I'm continuing to see messages that reinforce the fact that I have to believe and obsessively focus on what I want. I'm finding that as a man of faith it's not good enough just to have an ungrounded idea of what I want. I have to believe that I'll get it and fight to stay focused on what I'm believeing for even if there is no evidence, support, or guarantee. Even if I am not certain I have to be certain.

I'm working on a project with a few fellow faculty that deals with understanding the brain on how this understanding can benefit certain professionals, specifically those that work with youth that suffer from trauma. The idea is that we understand and improve ourselves in order to do the same for others. I'm not much on new age thinking but I'm finding it very striking how much of what I'm learning about the brain deals with the very things that the bible commends.

Jesus told his disciples "For assuredly, I say to you, whoever says to this mountain, 'Be removed and be cast into the sea'; and does not doubt in his heart, but believes that those things he says will be done, he will have whatever he says.
Therefore I say to you, whatever things you ask when you pray believe that you receive them, and you will have them. Mark 11:23-25. This even goes back to "Think and Grow Rich" where Napoleon Hill talks about focusing on a thought, coming up with a plan, believing you have it, not fearing and doubting, telling yourself you have it, and envisioning yourself with it until your reality comes true.

This project is strengthening and reinforcing an area of my faith and personal development that I have not been as strong in: the discipline of my mind. I'm excited to be here and excited to move forward with challenging myself to believe.

Rand DUMB

2011-12-14T06:31:00.000-08:00

Random Once Again

2011-11-30T15:29:00.001-08:00

Fam, I thought about modeling again. I thought maybe I should give DC Fashion Week another shot since I made the roster but couldn't show up last year. I don't know. Any thoughts?

Thanksgiving Break Recap

2011-11-28T08:01:00.001-08:00

I just got off the phone with one of my cousins on my dad's side. My family is so huge that when you take a look at my family that cousin could be just about anyone. Either way, she called to make sure that I got back home alright. I made sure to tell her that I had a blast this past weekend. Here's a recap of my Thanksgiving weekend.

Wednesday night: dinner and karaoke with the cousins. My silly family and I had to be the only ones in the restaurant actually doing karaoke. I decided to be the brave soul and get things kicked off with "It Wasn't Me" by Shaggy. I only knew the rhythm and the hook and not the verses. With that said, there were plenty of lines that I completely missed. My youngest sister followed up with "No Scrubs," which then turned into a choir of all the Curry granddaughters belting out the song across the restaurant. Next thing I remember was doing the Cupid Shuffle and then getting tired because that song is hella long. We left the restaurant happy.

The night continued at the the club. I do not remember the name of the club but there are a few things that I will remember. Actually I remember only one: the monstrous smell of sewage surrounding the club. Keep in mind that I'm with my family: my cousin, her boyfriend, my younger cousin, my sister, her fiance, and my youngest sister. As we are walking towards the entrance somebody yells out "Who farted." Everyone admits to smelling it but no one claims it. The smell gets worst as we notice a large puddle of something. The smell turns gawd awful and we realize that it is the puddle of something, which turns out to be sewage. The smell never goes away. We manage to get into the club for free since one of my cousins works for the radio station 103.9 The Beat. We make our way to the back of the club near the DJ booth and it's a wrap. About half and hour of being in the club the smell attacked us again. There was a door near the DJ booth. The door happened to be on the side where we smelled the sewage. Some genius decides to open the door and in comes the gawd awful aroma reeking havoc on my precious nostrils and everyone else in the club.

We made it home safe and sound.

Thursday: Thanksgiving dinner and broken down car. Dinner was great. I experienced an unfortunate moment because we didn't eat anything until after 4p.m. A trip to grandma's wouldn't be right without experiencing watching television in her room with the heater turned up to Hell fire. We all joke about how hot it is in her room. I feel like my sister inherited that preference because riding in her car is like volunteering to sit in a sauna for hours. I upapologetically pigged out on all the foods that give black people high blood pressure and diabetes until I couldn't take anymore. Then when it was all over I went back for another round. After that my cousins, sister, and I piled in the car and left.

We didn't make it too far until the alternator completely gave out. Nobody had roadside assistance. Luckily the insurance agent added so that we could get to where we needed to go without paying a ridiculous amount. Everything got taken care of and the tow-truck would show up at 9:05. It was 7:45. I looked at my cousin's boyfriend and asked, "So we got the car taken care of, but how are we getting back to the house." All 5 of us needed a ride to Columbia, SC from way out in the country. The tow truck showed up at 8:15--lucky for us. Even luckier, he let ride in our car while secured on the back of the tow truck, which is highly illegal and super cool. So that was how I ended Thanksgiving: riding in a car secured to the back of a tow truck.

The rest of the weekend just sailed on!

Hot D@m! Mother Father

2011-11-07T20:51:00.000-08:00

I'll leave what I really want to say up to the imagination but I just saw a performance that just messed up my progress as a curse free man. Ok that is an exaggeration, but just like expletives are used when a person does not have the vocabulary to truly express his or her feelings, I'm feeling that way but in a positive fashion. I'm talking about Allen Stone! Even after being invited to his show I didn't take the time to look up his music. Now that I have experienced this cat I am buying everyone of his albums before I lay my head down to sleep tonight.

His voice behind an acoustic is like running water. Then when he has his band it's like the swagger of a 4th of July BBQ with the soul of cornbread and collard greens to go with it. It's really like that. Never have I been to a show by an artist I knew nothing about and left singing every track. The guy is ridiculous. Words can't express the magic that the native of Washington state creates at a show.

The funny thing about this night is that I saw two performances which were polar opposites, which made me think really hard about what gives an artist that something spectacular. I am a musician. Not as accomplished but a musician none the less. The first performance I saw that night was the extreme worst. No connection with the instrumentalist, no connection with the crowd. Poor thing, the only thing she had going for her was that she was in her own zone. Musically there was no story being told. She maintained a pretty level feel the entire way and it was like her band was carrying her. Art is subjective but the performance was the difference between colors used to bring out the story versus color used because the artist wanted to. People walked out. That is until the next act came. Allen Stone just made magic. That is all I can say. He had a connection with the band. How he used his voice directed the band to pull back or give more. There was synergy and it just worked. It rehearsed but it wasn't forced. Luckily I can sense these things.

I may not know how to quantify it but I sure as heck know how to spot true music greatness versus something that needs work. All together Allen Stone is what is hot in the streets. Pick up his albums Allen Stone and Last to Speak available on iTunes and Amazon.com. I tell you what I will go see this guy again when he comes back on the East Coast.

Powernomics

2011-11-04T10:47:00.000-07:00

Now that all the hype of turning 27, and partying like I should have been doing all my life, is but a memory I feel like I need to say something just to stay relevant to my readers. I promised myself this week that I wouldn't say anything bad about my neighborhood but I relented on that promise when I heard gun shots go off. How do I know they were gun shots? Well, I don't. It could have been a clever fire cracker for all I know. What I do know is that them mugs went off 4 times consistently.

I also think someone got killed, shot, or wounded a block away from my complex. Here's the story: After a wonderful birthday dinner with my parents, younger sister and her fiance, they all follow me back to my place to drop off the 40" flat screen my dad bought for my birthday. Thanks dad. My father has been to my place. My sister has been to my place. My mother has never been to my place. I go to turn down the street I normally turn down to get to my complex and it is taped off. The cops and an ambulance were inside the tape. I'm thinking to myself, as I always do when I see the cops and the ambulance anywhere near my block, "Awww here we go again."

What was annoying was that my mom had never been to my place so here comes the worrying. I'm 27 years old and my mom still worries about me. Sweet a'int it. Annoying but sweet. So after my people drop off my TV I have a conversation with my folks about how unsafe my neighborhood is. I know this. I knew this when I moved here and I'm alright. So once again the depressing, nature of my neighborhood is a subject. All I can do is shake my head and see what's next.

In other news my cousin invited me to join his book club. He's never run a book club. I've never been in a book club. This is a cousin that I didn't meet until two years ago. My family on my mother's side is so large and we hardly have family renuions that I'm confident that I have cousins, second cousins, and third cousins that I have not met. Either way, dude is very socially conscious and aware, like myself---or at least I can hold a conversation that gives that appearance. We'll be taking a look into Dr. Claud Anderson's Powernomics. I took a look at the full length video lecture and I agree with a good bit of what he claims. He talks about the impact of racial monopolies in our society and how blacks need to learn the game and compete. At least that is what I took from it. Overall, I agree with his philosophy, not because it is pro-black but because it supports being business owners and uncovers the detrimental habits and way of thinking that a good number of blacks adopt. I disagree with his claims about the church being used as a vehicle to control blacks. I believe it has been intentionally used as such in the past, but a person's faith is never the product of a person in authority trying to control and manipulate someone, not when it is based on sound principles and judged critically through the experiences of life.

Other than that, I'm taking steps to work full time for NVCC. We'll see.

Countdown to 27 Finale

2011-10-23T16:22:00.000-07:00

I had an awesome time Friday night and dinner with the family on Sunday was a great way to close things out. I still have to finish all the countdowns on my previous blogs but that will come soon. Thanks to everyone that made Friday Oct 21st a night to remember. Thanks to all the people that have crossed through my life that have made me better. Here's to a great year ahead of me and the past behind. GMC

The Birthday is here

2011-10-19T20:52:00.000-07:00

Today was good. Maybe it's just because I'm feeling good right now. Whatever the case, I'm doing well at making this a memorable week. I'm going to really take the time and respond to every Facebook Bday post. Watch me.

Today my parent's woke me up with a call, which I really appreciated. I had lunch with a new friend, which was cool. Had class, which I ended early. Then hit up Bar 7 with a few friends. I had a good time. I had a good time. I made it home safely and here I am.

I have nothing poingnant to share. Thanks to all those that sent me a birthday shout out and even if you didn't it's all good. I feel the love and I'm moving into the place called better. My Countdown to 27 continues.

The Answer is Yes

2011-10-18T15:13:00.000-07:00

I can't get enough of this song!

Countdown to 27 Pt. III

2011-10-18T12:23:00.001-07:00

So far the only thing that is good about this week are my blog posts. I spent all day trying to wire money to a friend who was in trouble over seas just to find out it was a scam. I know, I know, I usually don't fall for crap like that. I don't know why I didn't think to call and find out or even ask a mutual friend. The good thing about it was that in hind sight I saw the attempts to block the transaction. I didn't send the money. I can't believe I was so stupid. Ain't that funny, which brings me to my subject. Laughter is good. All the time. And all the time, laughter is good.

I woke up and bust out laughing out of nowhere. That inspired me do this blog. 27 things that I laugh about still to this day.

1. I won't let that happen to me thoooooo. --Boondocks, the episode with Usher
2. Performing at the Dream Talent Show. I'm with Mike, Willie, & Brandon playing like we had a real gig when all the other contestants were under the age of 18. WTF. It was super unorganized, with corny Christian emcees--those that know me know how I feel about Christian corniness. The talent match was very unfair. I didn't feel good about competing against 5 & 6 year old kids. We killed it and didn't win. I can do nothing but laugh about that.
3. I met my best friend in high school because he and I were dating the same girl at the same time. Our mutual friends told us about it. The two of us met up and called her up and she was history. Strikingly we both had a lot in common and it was a wrap after that. I called him today to tell him how much I appreciate him, and we laughed about this very thing.
4. Anything by Kevin Hart! Alright, alright, alright! You gonna learn today. He said she ain't got no nipple.
5. How silly I got after one wedding weekend that gave everybody a headache. That was actually a good time.
6. At a step competition seeing a big girl make strong poses with the mean mug as she said. DO. . . . . YOU . . . . . . . . . . WANT . . . . . . TO. . . . (you had to be there)
7. Morgan Freeman in Lean on Me: Ya smoke crack don't ya? Do you know what it does? It kills ya brain cells Sams, it kills ya brain cells (As he drills his finger in the poor boys skull) Don't effin' with it do it expeditiously so go on and JUMP!
8. Going to Wal-Mart with the Goof Troop and filling up a basket with toys and such and leaving it in the middle of the aisle.
9. The Luther Burger---Boondocks
10. All the times I've run into furniture, plants, columns or busted my head up against the mic while leading praise and worship at church because I do things with my eyes closed.
11. Everybody in my family reminding my Uncle of how ugly his ex-girlfriend is.
12. How my old Pastor always clapped off beat
13. How his wife never ever said the word scripture correctly. To this day I don't know exactly what a stripture is. I'm not there yet.
14. All Roy Wood Jr Pranks. Them mugs got me through graduate school. Especially this one!
15. Radford Deliverance Choir in 2003-2004. What's to come is so much better than what's been. Yes it is.
16. Deez Nuts! Mis cojones.-- Mr. U.N.I and Profound Thought got me with this one. Asking me if I knew someone named Mrs. CoJones. CLOWNS. Good one though.
17. Ebony Jenkins!
18. Bro. Franklin
19. People getting slapped. Peep this! or this then there is this
20. R-E-A-D A B-O O-K! (edited version provided)
21.

Countdown to 27 Pt. II

2011-10-17T21:13:00.000-07:00

I want this to be a memorable week but there was really nothing memorable except a whole lot of hassle. This mornings I spent useless time searching for a Western Union, which I've never needed to use. I find it and I don't have cash. Later on I feel like I left a bad impression on a job lead. I didn't get home until after 10:30 p.m. then I remembered the reason I went to Western Union in the first place. Still no cash in hand, I searched for Navy Federal ATM over DC. My GPS gave out on me. I go on a wild goose chase to get some cash. I get the cash and the nearest Western Union was too many miles past my house. Ugh

Life doesn't always have to feel good in order to be good. Speaking of good I've made some headway into telling 27 people how I appreciate them. There are way more people that I want to tell this to so I don't think I should limit myself. The goal is 27 but if there are more I will do so. I reached out to my parents, of course, and two people I consider best friends. I'm making head way.

Today, or tonight rather I think it will be good for me to talk about 27 moments in my life that I don't regret. They are in no particular order

1. Becoming a Christian and sticking to that commitment even through my own personal
failure
2. Going to Virginia Tech
3. Modeling with Righteous Ones Entertainment no matter how brief my stint was.
4. Becoming involved with Impact during college--Impact conferences, regionals,
leadership, drama with the staff, and drama with the team. I don't regret what happened.
5. Attempting to become a part of New York City
6. Following my heart for youth and not working at a big agency
7. Applying to The Lagrant Foundation
8. Going to The Bahamas for the second time
9. Impromptu trips to Louisville, Montreal, Boston, & New York City
10. Being captain of the step team in high school
11. Getting to know a few key people that I know now (this can almost be several)
12. Going to graduate school -- I wouldn't be where I am now without it or the people
13. Laying it on the table to someone who may or may never get why I feel/felt what I
did at the time.
14. Choosing to be loyal to those I consider friends. There were so many times a
wrong conversation could have changed that.
15. Being a Communication major
16. Being a part of Judah LYFE, Ministry Mindset, & U.N.I. Each is really teaching me
about business and about what I am able to bring to the table.
17. Choosing to find my way in D.C.--When I came back to the area in '09 I really
hated D.C. and never thought I'd be comfortable with the city.
18. Staying in touch with a core group of friends from high school. As much as I've
grown and am a different person, I'm glad we all could grow together and
celebrate each others' successes and changes.
19. The churches I've been a part of. All the teaching and the services offered to me and rendered by me have shaped me into who I am today.
20. The men that I consider mentors. I don't consider too many people to fulfill
that role at this point but those that I do have really raised the bar for me.
It is crazy to be in a season where I have to mentor others.
21. Standing up to my parents to declare my independence. It was a really messy
interaction but we all know how to communicate with each other through that.
22. Walking away from relationships that I persisted to stay in. My Gawd!
23. Being fired from the Youth Center.
24. Working with Envision EMI
25. All the females that rejected me.
26. All the people that wrote me off.
27. All the foolishness, reflective moments, and people that helped make my
birthday week amazing. (I wrote that in retrospect!)

Here are a few of the photos from the shoot yesterday. Shout out to Demo Photos

Countdown to 27 Begins

2011-10-15T18:30:00.000-07:00

This is going to be a good week. Today kicks off my birthday week. I'll be turning the big 27 on Wednesday of this week and celebrating big on Friday. The funny thing is is that I don't ever remember celebrating my birthday big. This is the first year that I'm throwing myself a party--a party that has turned to a joint party inadvertently, but a party nonetheless. This is the first time that I'm actually taking a solid week to enjoy myself and I'm going to make it good.

To be honest, I'm not really feeling my best, but I'll muster up enough life in myself to make it all worth while. Today, after a photo shoot with Ministry Mindset, the team headed to Friday's to celebrate one of our group members' birthdays. I have nothing but love for all the October birthdays. For those that celebrate their birthday in October I make a serious effort to reach out. I guess it's my duty as a Libra.

To be honest I have nothing to talk about. This is going to be a pretty good week because I said so.

So in turning 27 what words what things do I want to reflect on? Right now the word bouncing back in my head is the past. When it comes to the past, I have regrets that are too numerous to count, disappointments, and a hell of a lot of mistakes. I also have moments that I wish would never end. Lessons that taught me what I had deep in me. There were opportunities that only came by the favor of God. There were people for seasons, reasons, and lifetimes. People that probably have no clue just how much they impacted me. Dang I know what I want to get done this week.

I'm going to make a list of 27 people that have made a difference in my life and say thank you. First 27 people that come to mind. I can't include everyone which will be hard. So here goes.

I leave you with a video of me introducing my birthday week and Danyl getting embarrassed at Friday's for her birthday.

Pictures Worth 1000 words

2011-10-11T13:04:00.001-07:00

Happy Columbus Day

2011-10-10T14:17:00.001-07:00

I'm off work today and I spent the majority of it doing . . . well nothing. I found this pic on Facebook and thought it would be great to share. In the meantime, edit this paragraph for me. I didn't think it was possible for a student to have such a strong vocabulary and confuse the hell out of me. It's all yours.

To begin with, one must understand that research is more than just taking a survey or reading a book. Research extends into a voluminous number of alternating facets of an art, the same concept of the act of educating oneself into every reach and idea relative to a specific subject matter, and each facet in turn through a variety of directions . There is of course basic ways of separating each facet of research, degrees of the level of personal involvement in such, but nonetheless the research is necessary to properly and successfully aid a viewpoint . Simply phrased; research is done by others, and in turn one must put efforts into researching the efforts of others , this is typically the case in the manner of the majority of public speeches and essays given. By taking time in one’s speech or essay to delve into relative research that has been done, one can support in varying degrees the point they are attempting to make, or more specifically exhibit an honesty and understanding of a given matter in showing that research has in fact been done and that regardless one’s view on such remains the same . Without research, there is on a general basis room for the potential argument to arise that you one is in fact not fully informed as a result of their own lack of efforts, and in turn are not making sound and justified conclusions on a matter.

Big A Productions

2011-10-09T19:40:00.001-07:00

Last Friday, I got up with Big A Productions for the first time. My goal was to get some music put around a concept that I already had lyrics and vocals for. I take a very flexible approach to working with producers. I'm all about learning their strengths and finding out how to best collaborate. From the moment I hit the door, Big A had a great attitude even though we never worked together and were unsure of each other's styles.

For the first half an hour I listened to some of the things he had been working on. I freestyle sang over a track to give him an idea of my voice, but we got to work not too long after that. I sang the hook to a concept I came up with last spring. After singing that over and over he had enough to pull something together. He definitely captured the feel I was looking for. I'm really happy about that.

My next step is to solidify the background vocals and go in an record by the end of this month. I'm really excited about it. Once copy written and administered to my PRO I'll be able to leak a snippet to the public. I'm really excited about it. It's been a long time coming because of financial reasons, but it's here. I'm making the proper sacrifices.

Here I go.

U.N.I Buzz

2011-10-06T12:35:00.000-07:00

How do you like the U.N.I company seal?

Our CEO, Brian Americus, was featured in a photo shoot with two other models for the launch of our new website. The new website includes a complete look book featuring our Loser design, a revamped online store that features designs from our Peace.Life.Love campaign, and a profile that better speaks the language of our consumer.

I'm definitely proud of what the team has accomplished. We move from one project to the next that we almost forget to enjoy what we have accomplished. Speaking of projects, after this post I've got two press releases to work on for the brand.

In the mean time you can follow us on Twitter @uniclothingco
Facebook: U.N.I Clothing Co

Success

2011-10-04T21:29:00.001-07:00

This is the reality we need to teach our children and mentees.

Music For Me

2011-10-04T21:01:00.000-07:00

It's funny. I expose myself to the world through so many different hats. I'm an educator. I've modeled. I'm a role model. I'm an activist. All those things are good but very few people really know me under my musician hat. I hear the term quite often "I didn't know you could sing." This is true. I don't put that part of my character on blast. I haven't been super persistent in that area either, even though making a living with music is a top priority of mine. Although I think about music often I don't quite talk about it too much.

So why talk about it now. Well why not? I have my first studio session with Meek Leek this Friday and I'm going through my catalog trying to see what I really want to work on. When it comes to me doing my own projects, I get so crippled by all the things that I want to go right that I often forget about making music that sounds great and feels right. I think this is why I haven't gotten much work done. I dream so big and so hard that I want everything to go right and be perfect. I think that is the plague of every true artist. Even still, I have to get some content out just to even get in the game right now.

Right now my talents have been used to support other projects. I've been doing background vocals for a local gospel group. Earlier this summer a friend brought me in to help write for his project. A couple of things happen when you play a support function. Your work gets changed, you have to adjust, and you have to remember that even though you put in the creative energy, the decisions are subject to someone else. I can dig that, but I think that because I've differed my projects, I'm getting pretty restless.

So here goes! I have a studio session on Friday. I've initiated working with another producer out of Woodbridge, VA to start up in early November. I'm picking back up some of what I started back in the summer of 2010. The only thing stopping me is my head and my wallet. I'll always struggle in my head with what I'm capable of. My wallet. . . sheesh...I'm making room. So wish me luck.

Dodge Ball

2011-10-04T13:47:00.001-07:00

I got some time before class to shoot the breeze and just read. I got to read on academic advising, which I'm very interested in. When I think about advising, I believe that every opportunity that I've ever had has lead up to me going into that particular field of education. I have concluded that it will allow me to weed out the clowns that just don't give a what. I have to see them on a weekly basis unless they just altogether don't come to class. Advising will also give me a common ground with students because the meetings will be mutually beneficial. Students have to see me if they want to see me not because they are required to.

What I plan on talking about has nothing to do with advising but everything to do with the ways I dodge students. Maybe this is because I'm getting older or maybe this is because I'm getting meaner but sometimes I just don't want to talk to certain people. It's like I have to mentally and physically prepare myself to converse with certain personalities. Maybe it's just perception. I don't know, but I know when I see certain students coming or I recognize the back of their head, I walk in the other direction.

The sad thing is, is that this is NOT characteristic of me--well at least not most of the time. I only started dodging people like this very recently. Now that I think about it, I dodge students because I really don't feel like going into professor mode. In professor mode, I have to remember exactly how old some of these students area, I have to be mindful to how sensitive they actually are. The one's I dodge are generally the students that I don't understand and inevitably perceive as annoying. I find it funny that professionally I do well in student/client related fields and the older I get the more my patience wears down. Speaking of dodging a student, one just walked into the faculty lounge and I can't dodge him. Hopefully if I avoid eye contact then I won't be recognized. I'm in blogger mode not professor mode right now.

I told my friends that I'm becoming an introvert because I'm liking people less and less. They wouldn't entertain my conversation. I don't see why not. Can't your Myers-Briggs type evolve. I'm ENFJ all day every day. I'm done.

Living in DC

2011-10-04T11:45:00.000-07:00

If you haven't noticed, I am a DC resident. I still have to get my tags changed and insurance changed over, but you can find me on 8th St and Alabama in Congress Heights. I'm closer to work and in a good proximity to the social life I wanted. This time I don't have to drive 40 minutes to an hour to get there.

Since moving I've been doing some thinking. To be honest, it's probably got more to do with the fact that my car got broken into the first night I stayed at my new place. Maybe 3 blogs ago, it might appear that I went on a spiritual rant about it to be honest I had to think about the incident differently. You're reading posts from a guy that got his car stolen, was out of work for close to a year, and then when I was working I realized how the world is run by stupid people and you can't trust anyone. I'm in a different place but the incident just confirmed all the negative things I believed about the world.

Either way, the incident got me thinking. Some people may get upset about this but I think for me it's good to allow my mind to move from thought to thought without restriction or reservation. This is what has been going through my head.

I decided to take a walk around my neighborhood--straight down Alabama Ave SE towards the Congress Heights Metro station. Honestly, there is nothing to look at and you won't catch me out there past sundown. As I walk around I consider my neighborhood and the fact that I'm not used to hearing so many police sirens go off or rush past my street in a 24 hour period. I'm not used to hearing ambulances go off. I look around my block and outside the gate things are just depressing. To see houses falling a part and yards not taken care of, abandoned buildings, streets that haven't been kept up. This is only what I see.

Being in a place like this isn't new to me because my parents grew up poor. They mention it in conversation and I can tell the stark difference between my life at home and how my grandparents live when I go visit. Those facts had me thinking even more. I'm not from areas like the one I live in now. Yes I can handle the obstacles and the people but more from a viewpoint as someone that wants to change the environment for the better and bring in more people like me. I'm not from a poverty stricken area. With poverty comes higher crime rates. I'm not naive and I'm aware that when you have nothing, you have to do what you have to do to survive. Morality tends to be less of a priority when it comes to staying alive. I completely understand that.

I'm from the suburbs and there are many opportunities and resources I have been afforded. I don't take it for grated and I don't think I'm better than anyone. Since getting my car broken into, I've been overcome with an overwhelming sense that I can't trust anyone. What's even crazier is that I feel this way against my own people. It's like an unspoken internal racism. Now I'm thinking back to myself. Is there something that I hate about me that I don't think I'm black enough. As though black identity were trivial in the first place.

I had this same conversation with my roommate, who is also black and from a similar upbringing. He spoke to me about how he feels like we are in a forgotten area. Some of the standard conveniences like banks, and stores, aren't in our area. Convenience is the least of our problems. What it all came back to was how the area we are in is abandoned. The nation's capital, the very place where laws and history gets made, is the very place where many dreams have been deferred because of economic circumstance and social class. Truth be told both of our concerns come back to class and less from race. Like my roommate, my parents come from a large family that grew up in poverty--my parents made it out and I am a by product of what they labored for. I grew up sheltered and placed in a position where if I needed something the only thing that kept me from having it was my pride and determination to be independent. Never had I lacked anything based on the sheer fact that it was unavailable.

For now I'm going to be smart. I won't park on certain streets. I bought a low jack for my car. I try to get to my house before a certain time of night. For now I'm going to hold off on visitors. I say hi to everyone I cross paths with on the off chance that someone might use my lack of acknowledgment to steal from me. I hope you sense my sarcasm because to be honest, it really doesn't take all that much. I got my car broken into that's it. They got me and all I can say is "Touche!" The jerk only got a car charger and some pocket change. Funny how a break in can have me thinking this much. The one thing I won't do is live in fear. I'm getting used to this place. Pretty soon it will be a part of me and have more of a positive impact on my character. Truth be told, whatever compassion I did have has gone out the window for now. I guess the moral of the story is here is that I'm learning how to adjust to the environment and not loose myself. These things can happen anywhere.

Who Want It.

2011-09-30T12:22:00.000-07:00

No words necessary. Just watch.

Platinum Lovers ft. Proche & Brandon (BYFKZ) from Gary Beauford on Vimeo.

The Brady Bunch

2011-09-23T09:45:00.000-07:00

On another note, I gotta learn how to get it like this.

Troy Davis and the Unmasking of Jim Crow

2011-09-21T20:40:00.000-07:00

I'm going to fight the urge to utterly pass out right now to talk about the Troy Davis trial. My cousin calls me, which is crazy because we have spoken all of a few times this year--not because of personal issues but more because of convenience. Either way I'm glad he did. Knowing how, socially conscious I am he asks if I was following the news about Troy Davis. At that point I never heard of him. To make a long story short, in 1989 he was convicted in the State of Georgia for killing in a trial based largely of eye witness testimony. From my understanding this was a case that had been tried and appealed on numerous occasions. Since his conviction 7 of the 9 original witnesses have sense recanted their testimony stating that they were coerced by cops to give a false testimony. Davis was sentenced to the death penalty. A federal judge was asked to consider significant evidence of Davis' innocence but rejected such evidence. The Supreme Court would not consider the case and as I speak right now despite much protesting and rallying outside the jail Mr. Troy Davis was pronounced dead about 47 minutes ago.

I took a break from writing because I don't really know what to say concerning this disgusting injustice. Unfortunately, I'm not surprised. One thing is for sure race is definitely a large factor in how this case was carried out. Without even knowing who was on the jury or any of the court proceedings, I'm well aware of how the South and many other places do justice. Innocent people, specifically underclass black people, get put on trial for felonies they are innocent of. It is known--I wish I had some research on this but check out this NPR news feature--how unreliable evidence based on eye witnesses is. So now an innocent black man was pretty much kept in the system until they could kill him with the death penalty. Eye witnesses that recanted their statements and alleged police coercion. And the judge would not reconsider the evidence after the fact.

What makes this event a travesty is that although America has a black president, there is only so much that our system will do to fight injustice when it comes to certain people. You'll get practically shut down for anti-semetic or anti-homosexual comment but how much protection will an underclass black person receive if the very system in place to protect him is the one that fails to move on his behalf and turns away as he is put to death based on faulty reasoning and deception. To clarify, it's never right to fight injustice with injustice but c'mon. Right is right and wrong is wrong.

At the end of the day this event only proves how backwards the American system is. It is NOT build on principles of faith but on survival of the fittest. Unfortunately, and this is my belief, there are people and systems in power that work to define who and what is classified as fit. I said what I wanted to say.

I welcome any feedback you desire to give.

Inflate My Ego

2011-09-21T18:38:00.001-07:00

Fresh off the car break in, I came up with the bright idea of polling my students to see what things I can adjust. Sure I may come to class with some chucks and an H&M sweater or V-neck T-shirt, say some very sarcastic things, forget the very material I am presenting but I do care what my students/clients think about my services. I always wanted to get some instructor feedback but I never cared to actually think about what to ask. This time, well, I still didn't think of what to ask. I kind of came up with the questions on the spot but I did follow through with what I was thinking as I carried out this poll.

I asked if the students were satisfied with the course at this point. I asked if there was anything that I could do more or less of. Lastly, I asked for general feedback. Now if I judge my students based of the looks on their faces as I present material to them, then I'd say that I was in to possibly get ripped a new one. To which I would have just kindly said eff you, I'm the teacher, I do what I want. Trust me. I would have. I was pleasantly surprised that they like me. They really like me. So far I don't have any complaints except it appears that the students want more discussion. I wonder if it was the students that don't participate in the discussion I hold that want more discussion, or if it is the students that I can't get to shut up that said that.

It appears that so far they are satisfied with the way I lecture. Some want more lecture. To that I say, "Are you kidding me?" One person wants snack. To that I say," I'm not Uncle Ben or Aunt Jemimah. Get outta here." All of that to say I am good to go so far. It felt good. So let's see what my boss thinks after he observes me.

2011-09-20T15:18:00.000-07:00

No matter the problem or the issue I face. I'll still give him glory. I'll give him praise. "The garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness."

All of the songs on Freedom to Worship have a special meaning to me but for various reasons I'm drawn to the song "I'll Give Him Praise." I woke up this morning thinking about the biblical basis for the song and I recalled all of the instances throughout the word where the situation called for God's people to be upset or afraid, but they proceeded with praise. God brought down the wall of Jericho with the praise of the people. During the rule of Jehoshaphat God set ambushes against the enemies of Israel through the people's praise. Let's not forget when Paul and Silas were thrown in prison. God used their praise to set them free.

It's funny because I thought about those things this morning as I walked to my car to go grocery shopping. I moved to a new neighborhood and spent my first night at this new place. I open my car door and remembered that I locked the car the night before. I saw everything that was in my glove compartment now laid out all over my passenger-side door. Who ever it was that broke in only stole a car charger. I was alright until I looked in the back seat and saw glass shattered all over the floor and on the seat. I got out of the car to see that someone had not only shattered the rear passenger-side window but this clown tried to pick the lock on the passenger side door.

Messed up stuff happens to me just like it happens to everyone else. For me to count the times that I've suffered the consequences of another person's irresponsibility would be futile because it is too numerous. The one thing that I can say about my reaction this time is that it made me look at the bigger picture. I'm not even sure why but throughout the day when I wanted to resort to anger I keep remembering that the devil is already defeated.

Don't get me wrong, I'm upset, but this incident coupled with the fact that I call myself a child of God caused me to check my reactions. O.K so I didn't completely ace this character test with flying colors but I was able to keep my composure and know that I'm not going to let this incident ruin my day, or anything more for that matter. I'm an educator. Whoever this person could have been that decided it was worth wile to damage my car for a car charger and some pocket change, was just the motivation I needed to be a better educator so I can keep one kid from choosing mischief over reason and responsibility.

It's even funny that this morning as I thought about the song by JudahLYFE, I'm faced with this incident, and reminded of the lyric that states "No matter the problem or the issue I face, I'll still give Him glory. I'll give Him praise." It's not even so much that the car break in is a big deal. Oh it's a big deal, but I know there are greater things coming for me that I don't want to ruin. All in all, today has been a lesson of responding with praise in those situations that don't appear to call for it. "Praise defeats the enemy." Today reminded me of all the mischief in the world. "Praise releases my destiny." In situations that throw me off balance I have to remember who I believe in and where I'm going.

I share this story as a testimony of how I'm growing. So when life serves it's distasteful moments,which it will. Be sure to check your reactions and never forget God track record when his people decided to respond to those distasteful moments with praise. I'm still working mine out.

Musical Journey

2011-09-12T19:40:00.000-07:00

This Martha Focker right here! Kurt Elling. Good Gawd. Pulling up this video brought back so many memories of learning vocal jazz. This cracker scatts like a mad man. Back in 2003, when I decided to really find my voice--a journey I am still on--my vocal coach would give me homework, which required me to listen to a jazz CD and report on it. This is when I came across Kurt Elling. What I loved about this cat was that he had the vocal freedom that I was used to since my background was in gospel and R&B. This guy reminds me of my journey as a singer.

I've been writing lyrics and poetry since the 8th grade and on through high school. My musical experience was pretty much just a dream. I never invested or thought to take voice lessons. The only chorus I took was being a part of the church choir. I wasn't a part of a chorus until my first year in college when I took a class in vocal jazz. I soon went on to take voice lessons with the illustrious Jamie Shew.

She helped give me my foundation. Every Monday we met for half an hour and each lesson I felt like I shouldn't even be singing. I can say that I never thought singing would be so difficult. I remember thinking everyone in my class was so much more well trained and advanced than I, which was true but I found my own and grew into a better vocalist. A pivotal moment came during a group voice lesson, where each student had to showcase a song we were working on. Here I am, with only a few months of experience performing with 10 other students that know their craft and I had to sing in front of them. I just remember praying because I was shaking in my boots. It was crazy because the only song that I could really remember was one of the hardest songs in my repertoire--In My Solitude by Duke Ellington.

It was my turn. I remember starting off really shaky and then something just took over me and I performed the hell out of that song to the point that a single tears was in my eye at the end of it all. I think that moment helped to build a foundation for performing. By all means I still had a long way to go.

Kurt Elling, Jamie Shew, and Solitude by Duke Ellington were all a part of my start.

In The Stall

2011-09-05T21:34:00.000-07:00

This is why you don't talk on your cell in the restroom -> OMG!....I was in the public restroom - I was barely sitting down when I heard a voice in the other stall: "Hi, how are you?" Me: embarrassed, "Doin' fine!" Stall: "So what are you up to?" Me: "Uhhh, I'm like you, just sitting here." Stall: "Can I come over?"..Me: (attitude) "No, I'm a little busy right now!!" Stall: "Listen, I'll have to call you back. There's an idiot in the other stall who keeps answering all my questions...

Rate My Professor II

2011-08-31T21:14:00.000-07:00

I think this is soooo hilarious. I must have made someone really mad because they took the precious time out of their day to give me a bad rating on Rate My Professor. By the time you read this things may have changed or not. I don't mean to pay too much attention to the negativity but I must point that I never in my life taught a CST 121 course. I don't know what subject that is and I doubt our campus even offers it. Hmm maybe that is where the student got confused.

This stuff sounds like something straight out of clients from hell.

It's A Celebration

2011-08-31T12:46:00.000-07:00

It's a celebration. It's a celebration. Celebrating the year I moved out my moma basement.

It's been a long time coming for me fam and September 15 marks the day that I move into my new place in SE DC. Too bad I won't be settled in for about another week after that date. I work during the evenings and the weekend that follows it is pretty busy. Either way I will be sure to raise a glass for myself because this city man has finally got it together to live in the city. The first couple of months will be a stretch but I can dig it.

To share a little bit about my journey I consider myself to have come a long way. From getting my Masters in 09 to moving everything to NYC to landing flat on my butt after that summer because there was no job in the city. Next I moved in with my parents and took on a part-time job where the leadership was horrible. I wrecked my car and then the car I was using got stolen, with no where close to enough money to afford a car payment. I was fired by that horrible leader and then took on a retail job where even more stupid people were in charge. While working there, I got cursed out by a pastor and I made sure to return the favor. Now here I am. Happy and enjoying the work I do, for now.

Don't get me wrong, I don't want sympathy and I completely understand that there are people out there who would kill to experience my bounce back story because they are worst off. What I'm getting at is I'm coming into my own. My education didn't prepare me for life. I think I'm a little jaded because life can suck. I know a hell of a lot more about how to handle situations. I'm not as naiive about people. (I possibly spelled that wrong but whatever.) I also think that every man has to experience situations that are difficult, humbling, and that take process in order to really know who he is. I know now I can take it. I know now that I can't rest my identity on what I do. I know that there are things that I do know. I also know when to say no. It's funny how money can solve all your problems and be the reason for so many problems. I've learned to say no when it's not worth it.

I was working so many part time jobs where the money wasn't worth the amount of time. I had a job where it was nothing but chaos everytime I came to work. I've also had moments that showed me where I really fit in. So for everyone who has come through a difficult time, even though there will be more difficult time to test your character, for now let's toast it up. It's a celebration.

Attractiveness Factor

2011-08-31T12:30:00.001-07:00

I did it again. I did it again. I gave another person privileges according to their attractiveness. I'm leaving the parking lot and I stopped at the cross walk. I'm a city guy so bump a cross walk, if I need to get through I'm going to rush the pedestrians out of the way. No, I don't run over pedestrians I just inch out a bit so they know I'm going through. Well, I would have normally done that but there was a very interesting missess that I wanted to enjoy walk out in front of me.

That's when it happened. I remembered writing about this very thing: how I treat people according to their attractiveness and give privileges to those that I consider more attractive than others. So in this case, I'm more likely to be rude and run over a pedestrian if I don't care for them. But let a good looking female walk out in fron of my car. I become the most polite some of a gun you ever met.

More on Amy Winehouse

2011-08-23T19:42:00.000-07:00

I've been jamming to Valerie as of late. I can't get enough of that song. This Amy Winehouse stuff won't go away. Here's an article insinuating that drugs were not found in her system. I also remember saying how her death put her in the category of other young artists that died at age 27. So did this article. I don't get it but I really think the chick was killed.

Hmm

2011-08-21T18:53:00.000-07:00

So glad they are over this now.

I'm a die hard Hokie but this struck me as interesting because I have been looking for jobs with this university. Hope they get it together or that will be one less force to keep VT from making it to the ACC Championship this year!

Class In Session

2011-08-21T16:57:00.000-07:00

Tomorrow class will be in session and I don't exactly have it all together. Trust, I'll have it on point by class time. This semester I've made a few changes. Instead of doing 8 week sessions to bring in the bank, I'm teaching the full 16-week semester. This will give me more time to focus on the students and actually give me time to plan assignments. Assignments: that's another area I have bulked up on.

Buddy boy those that had me last Spring had it good. I rarely had assignments but I was hard on them when it came to the work they actually did turn in. This time I'm more informed and am ready to facilitate the progress of my students. The only thing right now I'll be somewhat winging is this public speaking class I picked up last week. Enrollment for that class was through the roof so I took on that course to make sure I had enough classes to keep me at a certain income level. Speaking of enrollment all my classes are full. I want to roll my eyes because that means real work for me. I say that sarcastically. We'll see how many really make it.

Saturday was an eventful day. So the speech I thought I was giving, I didn't give. I guess the message was just for me. It's good to know I have something in my repertoire to present when the time comes. Nevertheless, the Back 2 School Jam was jam packed with kids. It was like our whole team was drowning in a sea of kids. One minute I'm setting up a snow cone machine, next thing I know, I'm serving snow cones a never ending line of chaps. It was fun. Hella hot, but fun. I enjoyed it.

In other news, I'm actively seeking employment as an Academic Advisor, or related position. I expect to continue teaching but I've made room in my schedule to pick up a 9-5. I expect to be working my tail off this semester! That is all I can say.

I got a chance to visit the University of Maryland and meet with an Assistant Director in a department that I applied to. I enjoyed my interaction and got a good feeling being on that campus. We'll just have to wait and see where the cards fall for me. I'm liking where things are going.

I also got approached by a student organization to be their advisor. I want to say no so bad because my eye sights are else where. As soon as I get the green light my time as a part-time instructor will be limited, but my heart for students is kicking in. It's almost like I can't say no because all of my alternative recommendation on possible advisors had to respectfully decline. So what is I's gone do? Ugh, maybe I should. Can someone help me with this decision. Even still, I'm liking where things are going in my life right now.

Just think this time last year I was jobless and cynical. Now I'm just cynical LOL. Not so much but I don't forget where I was and I'm eternally thankful that things did work out. For everyone in a tough circumstance all I can say is surround yourself with people that believe in you. Do what you can to enjoy life until you get a platform to move forward. That's it for now.

G-O-A-L-S

2011-08-19T18:31:00.000-07:00

I don't get very many opportunities to speak in public. What am I saying? I'm a speech professor. What I mean is that I don't get very many opportunities to prepare a message for an audience. I actually have a love-hate relationship with opportunities like that. I love it when it's over but I hate all the work that I have to do that leads to them. Sometimes I'm on it. Sometimes I'm not, but even when I'm not my gift of gab kicks in and I psyche people out by my charm.

So tomorrow afternoon I get to speak at an outdoor community event in honor of school starting back up. Now that I have this blog, it has proven to be a great way for me to talk and think through opportunities like this. As much as I tell my students to practice their speeches aloud and not in their heads, I'm tempted to go against my own instruction out of pure laziness. Consider this one of many steps to move away from what I am tempted to do seeing as how this speech will be delivered less than 24 hours from now. Here's a synopsis of what I'm thinking.

Consider that I just created an intro to wow the public into paying attention to me.

Today I'm going to talk to you about some of the things you will need to make goals. So the first thing you need to know is how to spell goals. By a show of hands can you help me spell goals. G-O-A-L-S! There we go. You have just come farther than most.
So when making goals here are somethings you'll need to do
G- Go for Your Dreams/Passion
O- Own Up
A- Allow Life to Happy
L- Listen & Learn
S- Seek God in everything

So let's look at G - Go for Your Dreams. Go for YOUR dreams or better yet go for YOUR passions. The key is here is to go after what you yourself choose. Not what YOUR friends think you should do. Not what others think is best for you. Not what your parents want of you or what you think will make the most. Go after the thing that you can spend hours doing and not get bored. So G- Go for YOUR dreams.

Next we have O- Own Up! Own up to what it takes to go after your dreams. Own up to the fact that you want to accomplish this goal. Own up to the changes you'll have to make. Also own up to doing what you need to do to pursue a particular path.

James 2:17 Faith not accompanied by action is dead. So what are somethings you need to do to get to where you want to go, or do what you are interested in. Read a book about it! Talk to someone that does what you want to do or does something close. Go where these people go. Where as Owning Up involves the things you can control. . . what do we do about the things that we can't control

A - Allow Life to Happen. Circumstances beyond our control are bound to happen whether we like it or not. Most of the time we don't like it. We loose something we thought we needed to get through. Something unexpected happens in our health or in our personal life that throws us off track. What do you do? You live through it and never forget what you originally intended. Even when the circumstance tells us that our original goal can't happen. You move forward and decide if you are going to listen or not. I hope you don't listen to that voice.

Next we have L- listen & learn. I'm a fan of not working harder but working smarter. Working smarter. No one can honestly say that there is no one who has not been where they are. So when it comes to listening reaching your goals involves opening your ears and taking the advice of older people who have either been down your path or seen other go down your path. Experience is a teacher but some experiences should be avoided because they waste time and keep you on a path longer than expected. Let's get accustomed to Proverbs 15:22/ Proverbs 4

Not only should you listen you should also cherish learning. Some of you all can't wait for school to be over. Even myself I couldn't wait to be done with my Masters. After I walked across that stage, got my degree, did my dance and left to celebrate with friends and family, it was that moment that I realized that my learning would only increase because of all the things that life would expose me to. Be committed to being a life learner.

So we have G-Go for your dreams , O- Own Up, A- Allow Life to Happen, L- Listen & Learn and now we have S which ties it all together. S- Seek God. We've got to seek God. Seek to grow closer to God, seek to know God, seek to love God. We've got to seek God first and throughout. Matthew 6:33 tells us to seek ye first the Kingdom of God and his righteousness and all things will be added unto us. All of this comes together when we recognize the source. If we are lacking in any of these areas seeking God is what will bring it together. Seeking God will put us in touch with our dreams. Seeking God will give use the wisdom and strength to own up so we can carry out our dreams. Seeking God will allow us to move forward and press on when life happens. Seeking God will direct us to those we need to listen to and learn from.

So now that we've talk about the things it takes to make goals what are you going to do? Class dismissed!

Shallow As Hail

2011-08-09T09:25:00.000-07:00

As much as I hate quoting untraceable studies, according to previous instructors a person's degree of attractiveness influences his or her likability and their ability to persuade. This is common knowledge. Think about it. A popular night club will never hire an ugly person. A smart marketing agency will not hire an ugly person. There is a certain swagger that these industries look for and to make the grade you better not in the least be considered ugly. That's the marketing field.

So what does this have to do with me? For the past week, I've considered how this dynamic influences me. My sister and I had a brief but hysterical conversation about how ugly people stay loosing. For some reason I more openly express frustration, annoyance, and all around disgust with people who I consider to be not so easy on the eyes. On the other hand I'm more patient and easy going with people that I consider attractive. This is true for people I think are attractive physically, socially, and professionally. Unfortunately, I do the same with students. Ahhhh whatever--don't judge me.

I've worked with youth for over 5 years. As I reflected upon my own shallowness, I was reminded of how I hardly ever yell at the cute kids, but with the moogly looking kids I stay screaming at the top of my lungs when I tell them to do something. Maybe it's the way some of these mugs can't eat a snack with out getting it all around their mouth and dropping crumbs on the floor. How these crumbs get 5 feet away from where they are sitting. Maybe it's the way the cute kids cry that touches my heart while the ugly kids scream, holler, convulse and make the most gawd awful sounds no human should ever make when upset. There's no such thing as an ugly kid but you know you've seen some. You know you have. C'mon not even one. Riiiiiight

It even comes through when I'm working with teenagers and college students. I caught myself being super sarcastic to a student and I couldn't put my finger on exactly what it was about this person that just got to me. Good kid, smart guy, but he reminds me of a gorilla. OK so he didn't look like a gorilla. I said that just for a laugh. I know what I'm saying is pretty bad and much of it is an exaggeration and sarcasm, but think about it. . . a person's perceived attractiveness has an impact on how others will treat them.

Unfortunately I've been typical and treated people according to how I perceive them outwardly. My use of the term ugly is an exaggeration so don't get your panties all wrestled up because I choose a term for impact and not because it was civilly or politically correct. Truth be told, there are plenty of people that I am drawn to because of who they are and not how they look. There are also plenty of people that can be considered good looking but say some of the stupidest most ignorant things, and act so stank that whatever was good looking about them suddenly vanishes. The point here is that we need to evaluate how we treat people. What is it based on?

Unfortunately I'm realizing that I can be shallow. I can also be insensitive. This is UnChristian like. I haven't found a way to reconcile it just yet. Am I completely wrong? In what ways are you like me in this matter? How should I be? Laugh about it and think about it further.

Before I go I want to tell you guys that I really wanted to spice this post up with some pictures. I did a google image search for ugly people and I could not in good conscious download any of those pictures to my computer. Nor could I waste my eye patience to tolerate looking long enough to repost it to this blog. What I saw was too much for me and I almost started cussing.

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This One's For The Ladies

2011-08-01T13:11:00.000-07:00

To give some context to this statement I'll tell the story of Ruth and Boaz. Ruth's husband died and she decided to stay with her mother in law, Naomi. Naomi and Ruth are dirt poor and go through a lot of tragedy where they are. Instead of returning back to her family she decides to keep the customs of her mother in law. Naomi has a distant relative Boaz, who happens to be mad rich. Naomi tells Ruth to work in Boaz's field to make ends meet. Long story short Boaz takes a liking to Ruth and eventually they get married. Through all of the struggle Ruth went through she ends up with someone that is best for her.

Now that you know this story you will understand this comment I saw on facebook:

Hey Ladies, "Ruth patiently waited for her mate Boaz. While waiting on YOUR Boaz, don't settle for ANY of his relatives: Brokeaz, Poaz, Lyinaz, Cheatinaz, Dumbaz, Cheapaz, Lockedupaz Goodfornothinaz, Lazyaz or Marriedaz and especially his third cousin Beatinyoaz. Please, wait on your Boaz & make sure he respects your az" Funny, but the TRUTH!

U.N.I Living the Dream

2011-07-29T09:55:00.000-07:00

I remember years ago when I was up late with Brian Americus talking about U.N.I. We talked about having Christian artists rocking our clothes on TV. Here we are years later and look what God did. Big up to William "The Ambassador" Branch for showing support and rocking the U.N. Eye design. This is a pretty heavy interview because he and his wife went through a critical struggle in their marriage. I don't want to take away the focus of how God has restored them but I'm glad that some good came out of it--for them and for the U.N.I brand. #BOOM

Also Mr. 129 himself--Royalty just released the video for his next single Gotta Get It featuring Chris Ray. A few weeks ago I showed you all some footage but here is the final product. Look at this cat rocking the U.N.I Good Wood piece. Also look for a Cameo from Brian Americus!

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In Memory of Amy Winehouse

2011-07-23T12:32:00.001-07:00

The song "You Know I'm No Good" has been ringing in my head for the past hour. I woke up this morning to a facebook post saying R.I.P Amy Winehouse. Moments later every major news source confirmed the speculation. In her memory I've decided to post some performances and music videos.

Of course I can't walk away without sharing my opinion but this to me is like some Heath Ledger/ Black Swan shit, excuse my french. Art imitates life or maybe the other way around. Let's think about it Heath Ledger takes on the role of the Joker in Batman and is found dead toward the end of shooting. Aaliyah plays the queen of vampires and dies in a plane crash. Then Amy Winehouse, although not an actress but incredibly gifted none the less is found dead in her apartment. Another young artist dies. I mean really think of all of the promising singers who were ahead of their time yet plauged by inner demons, bad relationships, and fame who died young. Donnie Hathaway, Elvis Presley, Billie Holiday, Kurt Cobain. It's like their music for shadows their fate.

It all makes me wonder what the heck have these people gone through and who is around them to jack them up so much that things like this happen. I peeped this video that was released this morning concerning her death.

Let's look at Amy Winehouse before her 2006 album. It's a completely different person---maybe not that extreme but close to a different person. I sit and watch this video and realize that much of what we know about Amy Winehouse/ any celebrity is a narrative. It's a story made up to help us understand who this person is. We've known her as a crack head that is hella talented. Think of MJ, we know him as a child star, greatest entertainer in the world, a weird guy, a to some a child molester. All of these characteristics are things we know of these people because we see them in the news. We don't really know who these people are and what goes on in their life unless they reveal it, even then media manipulates stories so we know what they want us to know.

I'm probably not making any sense but I really feel like there is more to the Amy Winehouse story than the public perceives. I look at facebook posts about her death saying that although her death is shocking, people are not surprised. I venture to say why not? Did you really know her? The public knows what the media wants to portray. Honestly, I believe the media can work to kill a person off so that when their death comes it was all a part of the greater narrative on them. I really have to question why things like, the death of a young promising artist are so common. Fame isn't what it is cracked up to be--as an outsider looking in--but I really wonder what goes on on the inside.

Rolling in the deep

2011-07-21T20:19:00.000-07:00

I was never a Linkin Park fan but this goes to show that a good song can make the most skeptic listener start to like a band.

Slap you to sleep

2011-07-21T14:37:00.000-07:00

I blogged about this video over a year ago and have been looking for the post ever since. I've come to the conclusion that I don't think I'll find it--well at least that's my cop out for wanting to spend my time doing something more productive than look for a blog post. Luckily, I found it on YouTube and decided to share the hilarity with you all.

Check back for more coontastic jungle bunny fun when I feel in the mood.

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Pressure f/ Range Da Messenga

2011-07-21T08:15:00.000-07:00

My Scores on Rate My Professor

2011-07-14T20:19:00.001-07:00

I'm headed to Philly in the morning and I'm up applying to a position at UMD! I got the urge to see my rating on ratemyprofessor.com and here is the feedback that I got.

This is further proof that I would have loved to have myself as an instructor. Since they said I was so easy, I'll definitely have to make sure I make things harder. HA HA HA Snitches! In all honesty, I appreciate the kind remarks. This just made my night. They like me. They really like me.

Why I Always Let My Class Out Early

2011-07-14T09:31:00.001-07:00

Maybe I should come up with more fancy titles so people will be interested in reading my posts. Ahhhh WHATEVER or as the kids in my former youth group say W/E.

It's 12:32. On paper my class is supposed to get out at 1:40. We got out at noon. I feel guilty. Why? Because part of me feels as though the academic rigor of my class should be a lot higher. Why? Because at some point someone is going to monitor me and I don't want to come across as a B.S. professor. Why? Because I want a promotion and more money.

So, I got into a conversation with another adjunct faculty that has been at NVCC for years. Side note: I haven't even been teaching for a year yet and I'm trying to move up the ladder as quickly as possible. Ugh. Honestly, I just want a job with benefits. Let me clarify because even porn stars have jobs with benefits. I want a full time job at a university that will offer benefits. There we go!

Back to my conversation with the other adjunct, I told her about how after less than a year of teaching, I'm ready to move into academic advising. I prefer the one-on-one interaction with students and I believe I'll be in a better position to help those that want help to reach their goals. The grass is always greener on the other side, so that's my logic right now.

I should still be teaching class right now, but today's lesson was not that lengthy for the amount of time I allow. Trust this much, if I let class out early then there should be no excuse for getting work turned in on time. That is my logic.

I would have loved to have me as a professor for that very reason. In my mind, why drag things out? Hit it and quit it--I'm referring to the lesson. If they don't have any questions keep it moving until they do. I think it may be my own ADD that contributes to how I jump around and move quickly through the lesson. Whatever it is, until I get some new ideas, I'm sticking to what works.

To all the students at NVCC: take my class and you will get out early.

People In My Life

2011-07-09T20:42:00.000-07:00

I go from one extreme to the other when it comes to the people in my life and those I hold dear. As a professing extrovert, I get most of my energy from being around people. As I grow older, the more I cherish just a few close personal relationships and care less about people that are just around.

I say so often that I'm good on friends, but it's moments where I can be fully me, laugh, joke, and express myself the way I feel that I really do cherish those people that can take part in that. Truth be told, I put on so much for my profession, for church, as an artist, as a model, and just as an individual who strives to be successful. No one ever told me that things had to be that way, it's just a thing that I do to protect myself and keep the wrong people from taking advantage of my patience. It's something I do, as a person, to feel people out to determine if they have my best interests at heart. All of this to say, I've enjoyed myself a lot lately.

I mentioned my trip to Montreal in earlier blogs. No I did not keep a v-blog but here are some priceless memories from the trip: the long ride from Boston, eating lobster for the first time, clubbing on "crap I forget the French sounding name" street, the Montreal Jazz Festival, and hanging with 3 lovely ladies and one of my closest friends. It was a good trip.

Another friend of mine moved to Australia to go to school. I'm so proud of that cat. He's a close friend and brother in the Lord that has helped me through so much. We got a chance to pray before he bounced and man, afterward I left I remembered how I first met this cat. I never thought that would be a friendship that would stick around, but God knows.

Today, I ventured to Annapolis, MD because the gospel group I sing with, JudahLYFE was an act for a festival being held on the dock. It was hot as balls. The whole time we laughed, we sweated, we joked, praised God, and had a good time. Sitting in Applebee's and goofing off with the team was priceless. It's funny how we all seem to notice the same things and trip off the similar things. 13 different personalities, especially 13 people that did not know each other a year and a half ago. All of us together for one purpose. It's been good getting to know everyone and work toward a successful project that touches the heart of God and reaches out to change people.

I do feel bad. I missed a late housewarming party from a buddy I knew from gradschool, I also didn't make it into DC to celebrate the bday of a designer I became cool with and chill with another college buddy. I had too much going on and I really do enjoy spending time with good people. Whether this post makes sense or not I just want to let all those who visit the lounge to know that I appreciate the people in my life. Today I'm very thankful to know the people I know and to take part, even if it is a small part, in the lives of others.

Shout out to Mr. & Mrs. Hunt and Mr. & Mrs. Pflugradt. I'm glad I could witness your moments. Shout out to the Goof Troop, Praverb the Wyse, DJ 2 Much, DJ 3-2-1, Oscah, Samski, and JudahLYFE.

Its Gonna Be HAUTE!! #TeamROE in "FAHRENHEIT: The Runway Show"

2011-07-07T20:45:00.000-07:00

TeamROE is at it again with another HAUTE event for the summer. Sunday, 7.24.11 Fahrenheit: The Runway Show & Networking Party will set the fashion industry ablaze. The night will feature the latest styles and trends from seven innovative designers from cities across the East Coast. The night will also include vending expos from designers and other business owners. VIP Admission and a cash bar will also be available.

It all goes down at 8 p.m. the Arlington Court Suites Hotel. 1200 North Courthouse Rd in Arlington VA. Take the orange line to to Courthouse Metro Station. Tickets are $20. Contact info@roetheagency.com to purchase.

One thing I love about the agency is their ability to also reach back while moving forward. Earlier that day, the team will host "I Want the 5" Scholarship and Runway Competition I'm also looking forward to the unplugged performance from ROE's feature act the FLY Brigade.

Shout out to the Icon Harley Morgan, the ROE Staff, Dream Angels, Aviators, and Agency Models for setting the standard in Urban Agency Entertainment, the DMV fashion industry, and fashion as a whole.

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Spokes model Audition & U.N.I News

2011-07-07T04:45:00.000-07:00

So here is what is up: I thought I said good-bye to modeling but I auditioned for a potential spot as a spokes model for Fairfax Studio. Pretty much they use spokes models to fit the needs of their clients. I did, I said good bye to modeling but this opportunity I actually get to say something, which is the one thing I was missing.

I don't think the audition went spectacular but I had fun. They couldn't get the teleprompter working so the boss man just asked me a bunch of questions. One of them, I rambled through until I could find an answer. Call it the gift of gab but being concise has never been my strong point. I'm interested in seeing what happens here. I could definitely use the extra $100 an hour.

In other news team U.N.I is on the move as always. At the end of last month Royalty aka Mr. 129 shot the video for "Gotta Get It" featuring Mr. U.N.I himself Brian Americus, as well as our Good Wood NYC Peace.Life.Love chain. Peep the video and follow us @uniclothingco. Facebook: Brian Americus or U.N.I Clothing Co.

That same week Christian rapper William Branch aka The Ambassador rocked the U.N.I Glow for Day 20 of the 30 day Stop The Funeral Campaign. Shoot I remember back in 2006 the long nights sitting up with Brian writing out the action plan for U.N.I, which was only an idea at that time--no product. I remember vividly how he wanted to get Christian artists to rock his designs. To see that happening is amazing. It's definitely not on the level we all dreamed but it's awesome to see that it is happening before our eyes. All to The Son. Peep the video:

What's crazy is that I had to check our website to find all of this out. The team has been on hiatus pursuing other ventures while staying true to the dream of U.N.I. I've been grinding as a professor, Profound Thought has been pushing her book, performing, and keeping her site in tact. Brian has been grinding on all things U.N.I. Being a part of a small business has been interesting, frustrating, and overall just a growing experience. One thing I will say is that it has been rewarding being able to spend time with people that are headed in the same direction as me. I'm really enjoying learning where I fit in the scheme of leadership. I expect only great things. Shout out to the U.N.I fam and all of it's supporters.

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Coats off

2011-06-27T09:13:00.000-07:00

I took my coat off to working at the restaurant and I said good-bye to modeling. I always do this thing where I let things go just to pick them back up again. I doubt that will be the case this time around. I decided to stop working at the restaurant because, if you've read my previous posts, all it was doing was getting in the way.

The Lord is funny. You can call it fate or destiny but for some reason although I was commended for being a great server, I could never make past a certain amount of money. Honestly, this isn't my first serving job but I made more when I worked at Shoney's in high school than I did working at this place. It was crazy. Cat's would walk out with over 100 and I could never get past 90. It wasn't even like I was getting 90 a night. After tip out I'd be lucky if I had 60. Now, you're probably thinking, "Poor Gordon. You only made $60 a night. There are people that don't have a job and you have two." Not discounting those situations. I'm grateful nonetheless. For me it was a matter of wasted time and mental creativity. I'd be in the restaurant for over 6 hours and the time I was putting in was not worth the return. Plus, I realized that I hated being there. It was only a matter of time.

Modeling. I've been with this agency since September. I'm definitely in a different place than I was when I went out to audition. I never thought that I'd stay this long or things would work out the way they have. Overall it has been a positive growth experience. The company is making some transitions that if I am to stay, I've got to go hard or go home. Unfortunately, I want to grow in other venues that I have been passionate about but have never pursued completely. My passion at a young age was to make moves on the music front. I am 26 almost 27 and have not scratched the surface to even get in the game. I'm going to get in the game, so I decided to step down from modeling. Yes, I could do both, but I want to put the effort in the area which I am passionate about. If I was passionate about modeling the way I was about music then that would be another story. Unfortunately I'm not.

I'm more passionate about not quitting and seeing how far I can go that I end up staying in seasons longer than I should. It's a funny dynamic. I'm not a quitter. If I want to see if I can be successful in an area I go and I go hard. Due to a lack of foundation, I tend to get worn out, but because I'm not a quitter, I keep my game face on and push it to the end. I'm too old to do that. I don't want to die knowing that I didn't pursue what I desired when I had the chance. So I took the step to let the agency CEO know where I stood.

Luckily he's decided to include me in the conversation concerning the agency's music capabilities. I'm excited. Hopefully things work out and that can create timeless work with the team. So long story short, I took those coats off.

Now tonight, there is another coat I have to take off.

Montreal

2011-06-19T21:31:00.000-07:00

It's official. I'm leaving the country for the first time since 2009. This time I'm headed to Montreal for the 4th of July. Ain't that crazy? I'm going to another country to celebrate the American Independence Day. It is what it is. There will be a jazz festival going on in Downtown Montreal so that will be cool. More details to come.

Work Ethic.

2011-06-19T17:23:00.000-07:00

Happy Father's Day!

So today was a good day except for a minor set back. You guessed it. I'm going to talk about the set back. I have another job at a restaurant that shall remain nameless. The service industry is awesome at scheduling people to work at the shortest of notices. After about a month of taking off most of my weekends I was finally able to get back on to the schedule and I get scheduled at the times that are the hardest for me to juggle: Saturday nights and Sunday mornings. I managed to make it on Saturday but today, Sunday--and it being Father's Day, was going to be a mess. I had to help out at church, which means that the morning shift from 11-4, which I was scheduled, was out of the question. Me being the planner I am, I get someone to cover my morning shift while I took that person's evening shift. Everything would work out great.

I had an amazing time at church. I need all the Jesus I can get going to this job. This is a job that I know I'll be putting my two weeks in very soon. It would happen sooner but honestly, when I'm not there throughout the week I don't think to call or come in. So I go into work under the impression that someone was covering for me. My manager looks at me and says I'm 4 hours late. It was at that point that the person I thought was covering for me actually didn't come through. Lucky me, or not so lucky me, I actually came in an hour before the evening shift. Ok, so I was 4 hours late. I tried to explain myself but what I perceived that the manager wasn't listening to me. To take it a step further I got the sense that he'd think I'd do such a thing: come to work 4 hours late.

Now I'm venting on my blog because I'm upset about something. I'm upset, not because I got screwed over by another co-worker. To be honest, I'm on my way out the door with that job anyway, but I'd rather quit amicably and know that I handled myself in the right way. What upset me was that in that moment, whether it was spoken or not, I sensed that the manager would think I would deliberately come in 4 hours late. I mean I hate the job, I'm doing better for myself, but I'm not that kind of person.

My track record shows that if I'm going to be late, I call. My track record shows me as a team player. At the end of the day I handle mine. As I'm writing, and as I walked out I realize that I don't care for people perceiving my work ethic to be sub par or minimal. My tardiness was an honest mistake. What's crazy was that my manager said you don't seem as upset as I am that you are this late. I told him politely, what would you like me to do? I was willing to stick around for a bit and help out since it was such a big misunderstanding. Truth be told, when he said, "I think I'll just send you home," I was not complaining. I had a Father's Day dinner with the family that I could make.

I guess the moral of this story, if there is one is to know yourself even when the opposite is being perceived of you. I guess that's what it comes down to. Unfortunately, I wanted to get out of there so bad that I still haven't put in my two weeks. As I rode home, thinking about how I'm going to get out of going to work next weekend, I thought about calling out sick. I'm sick alright. Sick of that damn job!! I'll get it together and just end that relationship very soon.

Education System

2011-06-17T05:56:00.001-07:00

I'm not completely sold on everything in this video but I do accept the validity of a good majority of it. Not everyone goes to private school and not everyone walks away from a university brain washed into thinking college will be the cure all to the American Dream. Just like any system there are those that use it for good and those that use it for the wrong reasons. Strikingly, the education system is not exempt. Enjoy!

E-mail from Jus Kev

2011-06-15T20:34:00.000-07:00

I got an e-mail earlier and I thought sharing it would be a great way to end my night. Here goes.

Decide with your heart

Decide with your heart, and then do. Decide with your heart, and then stay decided until the job is done.

Decide to do what you know is right for you. Then don’t let anything stop you from getting it finished.

Feel the doubts and fears, and then move forward anyway. Each time anyone tells you why you can’t, remind yourself again of why you must.

If circumstances are less than ideal, so be it. You can deal with the challenges as they come, and move steadily toward the achievement of what you’ve decided.

Decide with your heart, and you’ll naturally be committed to that decision. Whatever may come, you’ll know you have what it takes to get the job done.

From the depth of your being, from the truth in your heart, decide what you will do. Then delight in the process and in the fulfillment of getting it done.

— Ralph Marston

Apparently Ralph Marston is a daily motivator. I'll do some research on him later.

Make sure you tune in to Jus Kev. I look forward to the Musiq Monday posts.

Magic in the Musiq

2011-06-15T15:59:00.000-07:00

This will probably be one of the funnest blogs I've done in a long time. I've been living the life of a Professor, not that it's boring but I have something else to talk about other than work. Last night I went to see my favorite artist perform at Rams Head Live. Watch the videos and you'll know who it is.

I tested out taking videos on my new phone. I've got to work something out when it comes to the sound quality because this piece picks up everything. From Aijuswannaseing, Juslisten, Soulstar, Luvanmusiq, to Onmyradio I've been pleased by his consistency. His lyrical style is honest, straightforward, and unique. There is not a producer featured on his projects that don't complement what the Philadelphia native brings to the table. I like singing his songs because they aren't too far out of my vocal range but after seeing him live I was actually surprised. He really showed his vocal range that night. I knew the dude had a high falsetto but this dude does runs like Kim Burrell. I'd say they provided a great icing on the cake.

He mostly performed songs off his 6th studio project Magicinthemusiq, or some combination of the words---I haven't looked it up. My check hits my account tomorrow so I'll definitely be coping that album from Amazon.com.

My favorite part of a show is actually the beginning. His band and background singers came out wearing all white--I really want to say "all white everything"--and kicked things off with Just Friends(Sunny). This was his first single, which many don't know that it was on the Nutty Professor II soundtrack. From that point on Musiq has been riding the momentum. He mixed that up with Ridiculous, which to me I thought was a hidden treasure on Luvanmusiq. From there he kept things rolling with Half Crazy, If U Leave mixed in with Stevie Wonder's Ribbon in the Sky, a bunch of his new songs, So Beautiful, Girl Next Door, and some more new songs.

I'm going to leave you all with what I think was the signature performance of the night. It wouldn't be Musiq Soulchild if he didn't perfom the ever classic ballad Love. Enjoy.

Pictures from the show can me found on Facebook: Gordon M. Curry. Don't forget to follow me @jusflashgrdn. Make life count family.

Blahzayy

2011-06-13T20:30:00.001-07:00

I'm over here eating a cinnamon roll trying not to get that icing all over my keyboard. I got Mr. Moon trying to come up with a name for his goodbye party to celebrate the fact that he will be studying in Australia. As always I have a million thoughts taking place in my brain. Maybe I might say something profound or maybe I'll ramble until I find myself. Now I'm playing Ndelible. I just want to make music. I'm participating but not making music. As always, hopefully I'll make room for it this upcoming month.

I'm not 100% my job but that's all I've been able to talk about. I don't want to talk about it but I want to relax. I'm so disciplined that I wild out or sleep the day away when the opportunity arises. Too bad I wake up the next day ticked off by the consequence of letting things go. I'm not sure what I'm saying now.

As I get older I get more stubborn. I have become especially stubborn in the area of getting to know people. Unless there is a business or personality connection I honestly don't care much to know new people. I'm not sure what it is. I'm actually a part of a business where I am so out of touch with everyone that it's ridiculous. I'm becoming more introverted. Actually I'm becoming more purposeful in who I let around me. I've also become more deceptive in my nonverbals. At least I think I am. I've been having a lot of conversations with people where in my head I'm screaming that this is whack, as I smile and nod and ask more questions. Call me fake, I'm just trying to give people a chance.

Life is feeling pretty bland. I can't wait for this concert tomorrow

Aspetto

2011-05-31T13:10:00.000-07:00

I'm completely wasting time when I should be grading but my student started a business when he was 18. I really need to get my life together. The name is Aspetto.

Wing Man

2011-05-28T10:42:00.000-07:00

Thursdays at 5 are always the start of my weekend. I'm completely done from a week of teaching and all I want is a couch, a glass of wine, and a meal to unwind before the weekend. This time I decided to pull up enough energy to head into the city , D.C., and kick it with one of my homies from school. So let's fast forward to the funny part of the night--or at least it was funny to me. It's 11:30, the Miami Heat beat out the Bulls and are headed to the Finals vs. Dallas, my friend wants to go on the prowl.

I really don't do the prowl thing. I usually stick to my personal networks when it comes to meeting women. Why? For me it's more about having mutual friends and acquaintances that help me see the red flags but it is what it is. This mug happened like clock work. We stop by Marvins then head over to Busboys & Poets. On the way my friend stops some chick that he knew from a store he's shopped at. She recognizes him and tells him to come to Marvins. She with a few of her friends one of which, I promise you, reminded me of Beyonce's character Foxy Cleopatra in the Austin Powers movie. She was pretty dope, very nicely put together. So I had a personal incentive to go back to Marvin. I'll call her Cleo

Fast forward to Marvin's. We came back we might as well talk a little more to the females we just met. So we do. My friend approaches the one he was interested in. I do the same. I meet Cleo and a few of her friends. My homie is on the other end of the group talking to his chick. Cleo tells me she is an artist. I tell her I definitely got the creative vibe from her when I first saw her. She tells me about how her and her friends work at a vintage clothing store then after a few exchanges she says she's waiting on her boyfriend. I ask how long they've been together. She say six years. I congratulate them and ask what does he do. He is an artist as well. I ask her about how they make it work since they are both in the same field of work. She goes on about her art work and I'm no longer listening but smiling. I look over at my friend and he is lost in his conversation.

I move on to converse with another female who is into sign language. Not my type but I need to pass the time, plus I sipped my drink so I had nothing to occupy myself. So as I'm conversing with the other female she tells me they are all there for a friend's bday party. I never spoke to the friend but I'm thinking to myself "Dang I just crashed somebody's Bday party and I'm here with a bunch of strangers." Oh well my boy is having a good time. I look up and Cleo's boyfriend is in the group. No problem. She introduces us. AWKWARD. "Yeah man, I'm the dude that just tried to hit on ur woman before you got here." I didn't say that, I just played it cool, pointed to my friend saying that my friend knew one of Cleo's friend's from the store. I asked about their artwork since that was the one thing I remembered. Cleo's boyfriend tells me about a few shows he's hosting and Cleo gives me her business card. My friend leaves the crowd so I tell everyone goodbye. Hmmm I thought the experience was hilarious.

Things that make Jesus go SMH

2011-05-24T19:57:00.000-07:00

As a musically inclined person I can't stand crap like this. As a Bible-reading Christian I sure as hell can't stand stuff like this. Jesus has a serious sense of humor to allow people like this gain a platform in a church. So sad.

I had a dream

2011-05-10T13:53:00.001-07:00

This is so crazy. I had a dream that one of my former students put their hands on me. Put their hands on me as in attacked me. She scratched me on the side of my head and I ran out of the room to go tell the administration. So once in the administrative office, I speak to a policeman who tells me they are going to go get her. He leaves to go get her. As soon as he leaves out of one door the student rushes into another door and charges for me saying slyly "Hello Professor Curry." Then I wake up.

This mug was really crazy and I don't know why I'm tripping over it.

Made It

2011-05-08T20:27:00.000-07:00

Fam, it's been a long time coming. My focus for the past six months has been on all 70 odd students that I have taught this semester. I can say that I'm talking to you just after I've reached the end of the first semester. It has been crazy. Crazy good, crazy strange, crazy awkward, crazy inspiring, and all around a crazy learning experience for me. I'm very proud that I have been slightly initiated into higher education and I want more. More for myself. More for others. I'm in a good place.

So while I'm in that good place, never actually attaining all of the top things I've been reaching for, I get an opportunity to possibly go back to NYC. I'm in talks with a recruiter who thinks that I may be a good fit for some of the agencies on her list. With that said by mid June I'll be taking a trip back to the big city to see about it all. What's funny is that I haven't thought about working at an agency since leaving NYC back in 2009. When 2010 came in--now 2011--my focus shifted primarily on education. I'm not complaining. The only things that make the move complicated--if I was to move--is my place in JudahLYFE, my church, and the clients that I have. I don't know but I'm not going to do like I usually do and prematurely shut it down without investigating the options.

Like I said, I'm in a good place. I like where I am. I mean not exactly, I still live at home with my folks, but then again in this economy there are folks that would kill to do so. I'm good.

Congratulate me on making it to the end of the semester. I've endured: students that can't write; students that fail to show up to class then get upset with me because they are failing; students that go missing for weeks come to find out they were in jail; drama between students working in groups; tons and tons of late work; tons and tons of excuses for late work; students that I'd actually like to grab a drink with; students that are going to bless the world in the future; admins and secretaries with attitudes; faculty that get buck with me but change up when I show them I'm faculty LOL; colleagues that are great mentors; completely forgetting what class I'm in; and much more. I love it. I hate it. I'm becoming better.

I Surrender My Life

2011-05-02T13:12:00.001-07:00

Just 2 Be Funny 2011

2011-04-20T13:00:00.000-07:00

The 2011 edition of Just 2 Be Funny is back. Go head and get your laugh on. Or not

Turning Tables

2011-04-11T21:35:00.000-07:00

I really think this should be her next single. Maybe it already is. I'm awake for no reason. It always happens about this hour when I should just go to bed. For some reason I stay up checking e-mail, facebook, or Blackboard. So I'm up on the brink of just crashing but I got the urge to blog. I haven't blogged in months. I just gave a quick recap of what is ahead for me and my business partners. Hmm. Lately, I find myself pushing everyone else's agenda except my own. I'm a part of some really big things and some great projects, but I'm getting ancy. Wondering when my turn is. My fortune cookie said that all the answers I need are right in front of me. I don't regard fortune cookies like that but what's funny is that I must have put the message in my pocket because it fell out while I was in church the other day. I'm listening to the sermon and I hear that very same message.

That has nothing to do with turning tables but prayerfully the table will turn for me and I'll be more than just my job and someone significant. I'm striving for significance.

This Week

2011-04-11T20:58:00.000-07:00

I'm modeling in Philly this weekend.

Check out this promo video for Profound Thought's book "Who Cares What You Think?"

U.N.I and Profound Thought will be in Atlanta next week for the Pre-Dove Awards celebration.

If you haven't already download the new single from JudahLYFE! Available on iTunes, Amazon, and a whole bunch of other sites.

It's Here

2011-03-23T22:27:00.000-07:00

I've been privileged to contribute background vocals for a gospel project by my friend D. Jakolby Washington. The first single I Surrender my Life from his debut album Freedom to Worship is available on iTunes. Look out for the album Freedom to Worship by D. Jakolby Washington & JudaLYFE dropping this spring. We've got quite a few engagements ahead of us so check us out on Facebook or on the web at judahlyfeministries.com

Adjustment Bureau

2011-03-18T09:49:00.000-07:00

Dear Blacktie Lounge,

Oh how I miss you. It seems to happen like clock work. I go through periods where I have absolutely nothing going on. Then I hit a season where I have to be in 3 places at once. Good news, the semester is halfway through. I successfully completed my first 8 week course. Now I have picked up 3 more in addition to the full semester course I currently have. I'm one week in and whoa buddy it's pretty crazy. It's been some late nights and early mornings. Well not exactly early mornings because I haven't been able to even wake up. It's been an adjustment none the less.

Last week was my spring break and I took a nice little trip up to Boston. I spent most of my time lounging around my friend's place being a fat lazy some-of-a-you-know. Two particular things happened while I was there: we went to Foxwoods casino and we also saw The Adjustment Bureau. About the movie; one thing I hate is going to see a movie just because. The movie you want to see is not playing or is playing at a time you don't care for so you pick an alternative that you never intended to see. This happens to me a lot.

Well after seeing the movie I was really blown away by the message. It was almost like I was meant to see that movie. Crazy huh? Without giving away the story, I pretty much understood the theme as those who fight circumstance to get what they want can rewrite there own destiny instead of it being chosen for you. That mug was pretty deep.

As far as Foxwoods casino, I haven't developed a talent for patience yet so that completely got in the way as I was playing the slot machines. After spending $20 unsuccessfully, all the while knowing that I won't get paid for another 3 weeks and I still have bills coming, I stopped playing and went to another lounge.

Another exciting thing that happened was that I tried Sake for the first time. Yay me. Now I'm back in VA, back on the grind, doing the most as usual. I want another break already. Does anybody else feel me?

Righteous Ones Entertainment Agency Presents.... We Invented the Runway VI. "Deal or No Deal”

2011-03-07T21:27:00.000-08:00

I've gotta show love to ROE the Agency. Peep the press release.

FOR IMMEDIATE RELEASE
Media Contact: Armani Worrell
W. Public Relations
Armaniworrell@gmail.com
202.870.4656

Righteous Ones Entertainment Agency Presents....
We Invented the Runway VI.
"Deal or No Deal”

Forestville, M.D. (March 7, 2011)- On Sunday, March 27th Righteous Ones Entertainment will stage its annual high school modeling competition, “We Invented the Runway Vol. 6: Deal or No Deal”, an organizational modeling competition and showcase. With its grand prize being set at $1200, this year’s title, service learning hours towards Graduation, and a Prom Sponsorship; the bar for entire has been raised. Righteous Ones Entertainment: The Agency has teamed up with The Lollipop Kids Foundation to support and bring awareness to the important cause of Youth Disability and creating the campaign "We are All in the In Crowd!" Serving as a bonus incentive to all prospective competitors in the showcase who submitted a two minute Public Service Announcement on "How we can make our schools and communities a more inclusive and comfortable environment for all youths." This high energy modeling competition and showcase will consist of a four round judging phase and include an unforgettable duet musical performance from Pop/R&B Vocalist IhsAn Bilal and Hip Hop Recording Artist Pert McFly. Taking place on Sunday March 27th, at Henry A. Wise Jr. High School located at 12650 Brooke Lane, Upper Marlboro, MD 20772. Doors will open at 6pm and tickets can be purchased for $20 and $15 in advance more information available at info@roetheagency.com.

The Lollipop Kids Foundation Mission
Children with disabilities have the right to be given opportunities that allow them to live to their fullest potential. Too often, parents raising these children feel isolated socially and are burdened financially, emotionally and physically. They are forced to make hard decisions and sacrifice substantially in areas that most could not imagine. The Lollipop Kids Foundation exists to combat social stigmas, ease the financial burden placed on these families, offer emotional support, and provide brief respite so that every child with a disability has access to a hope and a future.

Righteous Ones Entertainment Agency
Headed by Harley Morgan, Righteous Ones Entertainment: The Agency (ROE) is slowly becoming a premier Model and Talent agency, serving the Washington, D.C. metropolitan area. Our exclusive models are trained with high levels of professionalism in the areas of print and runway and they possess the capabilities and talent to deliver the ultimate essence of high fashion and urban technique and style. Our models have consistent in – house access to mainstream model development, professional and performance preparation and development, and opportunity for bookings and supplemental work with established clientele. Talent division will open spring 2011. Marking this year as our year of aviation, ROE is riding high on a nonstop flight to success and beyond!

Serious Inquires Only: All Media, who are interested in attending/covering the event, please RSVP to Armani Worrell at Armaniworrell@gmail.com
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#10 Is A No Show

2011-02-26T15:55:00.000-08:00

I made it through the model call. I got picked by the designers. I even got picked for a show in the future but for tonight's DC Fashion Week Menswear Show I am a no show. I definitely didn't want things to pan out this way and I could have taken more responsibility to prevent it but time and inconvenience caught up with me. A bad tire, a pressure unit gone bad, and bad planning left me hanging. Next time I'll make sure to take note of the warning signs, seeing as how not being attentive has caused me to miss a great moment. Oh well. I'm over it now. What's next.

The American Dream

2011-02-25T20:49:00.000-08:00

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I'm Going to Buy A Car

2011-02-25T18:08:00.000-08:00

I'm hoping to get this bad boy by the end of next week.

Some Pics Make Me Wanna Say. . . .

2011-02-24T18:52:00.000-08:00

I'm not conceited. LOL. Not that I need to affirm myself but there are some pics that make me look at it and say "Damn, I look good." Here are a few. Shout out to Harley Morgan and the team at Righteous Ones Entertainment Agency.

I Used to Be So Nice

2011-02-24T17:25:00.000-08:00

I got caught up looking at old episodes of the Real Housewives of Atlanta. My dose of ignorance used to be Flavor of Love but now we have more reality shows that have taken the wheel of ignorance to levels unknown to man.

I should be at Tabaq Bistro for the fashion industry networking party since I am modeling for DC Fashion Week this week. I got my people ready to go out but this morning I was not feeling it. This has been a very busy week since I've been preparing for the new courses I'll be teaching the second half of the semester. I have a second job. I've been doing background work for a studio project. All around I'm busy and gas is $3.15, but most importantly, I just don't feel like networking anymore. I don't know what it is when it comes to the fashion industry. I love being featured in shows but when it comes to interacting with other models I don't know who is after what. I actually take that view on a lot of things lately. I meet new people all the time but whether or not I'll take the time to see what they are about is a lost cause. I say this all the time but I'm good on friends.

I never used to be like that. I was always the guy that wanted to know everyone and be around every person. Now, as soon as someone says something that I don't care for I figure that I won't waste my time. Maybe this is just a sign of me getting older. My patience with people has worn thin. Maybe it's a sign that I've worked with kids because even with them, I realize life is too short to coddle them and treat them like life will cater to them when they become of age. I don't know what it is but I've definitely gotten more aggressive when I handle people.

If I don't like a situation, I don't stick it out and wait for it to change. I speak up and call it like it is. I just don't like people the way I used to. It's sad to say but for most people if you are not in my circle or I don't have an area of common ground now, chances are I won't go out of my way to get on your level. Shout out to all the real people I know. I'm just frustrated with people and I don't know why. Either way I'm not wasting time on that bull.

Life and Times of Professor Curry: You're Failing

2011-02-21T12:40:00.000-08:00

Today, I let my class out early to work on their up coming persuasive speeches. Recall a previous blog about being a black teacher and being drawn to the black students. I'm searching for the words to say about this guy and all I can do is speak from what I observe. He gives no effort at all. Yeah, I know, I can say that his way of giving effort is different than mine and I can ramp on about how I can change my teaching methods to suit him. Or maybe I can do things to make class more fun. Bump that. Here is what I see.

He got the highest grade on the exam. Now that we've moved into the public speaking portion of the class all I seem to be getting are excuses. No his speaking skills aren't the greatest. It's actually annoying to hear him speak but the problem I am having is that he is not giving any effort. Out of 16 students that have to give impromptu speeches as a part of the class, he is the only that has started a speech, stops to blurt out " Man . . uh uh..I can't think of nothing." That is understandable to cop out everytime you have to give a speech C'mon SON. I know public speaking is America's #1 fear but if all 15 of my students try and still proceed even when they mess up what he's doing is unacceptable.

He stopped turning in assignments. He waits until the class before a final draft is due to tell me that the whole 2 weeks we've been working he doesn't know how to do the assignment. Are you for real son? Then the day everyone gives their speech, which is 20% of their grade, this clown gets up starts his speech, stops it, asks to go later, then proceeds to read the entire speech off his note cards. To me that is a lack of preparation. When all the other students are willing to try and one isn't. He reminds me of a little kid that when he's scared he'll run away or throw a tantrum so that he does not have to face up what is required of him.

Yeah this is just my opinion but when he is the only one in the class that doesn't try, I see that there is something wrong with him.

I made him stay after and yeah I was honest. I asked if he had a learning disability. He said no. Dude didn't even once look me in the eye. Who does that anymore. What was so crazy about it was that he apparently has A's in his other classes. He tells me that my class is boring. I really don't care. I'm not here to entertain you. My class requires you to think and participate. He asks for extra points and I'm like son, you haven't even turned in the work I asked you to turn in. C'mon. Then he proceeds to say that he can only give me 3 minutes for the next speech and not the 5 minute requirement. (points at lip) OK.

I never cared for students or people that don't try. The conversation took a turn and he said that he's always been how he is. I'm not going to cater to that. Either he'll get it together and work or he'll fail. I don't have time to tailor things to someone who does not try. Especially if he is the only in the class that does this. I'll have to leave this alone for now. I hope it makes some kind of sense.

Multidirection

2011-02-12T20:20:00.000-08:00

What's going on family? It's February already. Like any normal person I get so consumed by the pace of life that I haven't kept everyone up to date. Forgive me. Here's what is going down.

U.N.I. updates:

Fresh back from the Stellar Awards our team made business connections with Kingdom Swag. This is a great opportunity for both our teams because we get to take the lead on the fashion front and the KS team has a network of artists in which to build relationships to expand our brand. I'm not sure how much info I can release but expect to see some big things in April taking place in Atlanta. Also Mr. U.N.I has been working with Iz-Real of Everyday Process to design a shirt to go along with his Loser Mixtape. Take a look at what we have. Since we are on the subject,peep U.N.I's online boutique to take a look at our past collection and make a purchase if interested.

Oscah:

The MADSOUL mixtape Vol. 1 is going strong if you haven't peeped it get it in time for Valentine's day. Don't forget to follow him on Twitter:@iamsoul or become a fan on Facebook: Oscah

Modeling:

DC Fashion Week Feb 21-27 is a week away. Come party with me Monday Feb 21 at Tabaq Bistro. Thursday's and Friday's events are escaping me but I'll talk about it later. Saturday, come show me some love as I walk in the Menswear Showcase at the Washington Post Convention Center. I think that is the name of the location. Crap visit this site for the correct information on it.

I don't talk much about ROE on my blog but I want to let you all know that I go through a review from the agency's executive team next Saturday. They will let me know if the progress I've made is good enough for me to continue on their roster. Otherwise, I'll have to part ways with the agency and seek further improvement. I'm preparing to hear both a yes or a no. I mean, of course, those are the possible answers I could be given. If they give me a yes, then I know the rest of the year is going to be the ride of my life trying to get up to agency standards. If they tell me that I'm not ready, I can honestly say that I've appreciated my time working with the team and pushing myself to creative and personal heights that I never would have pushed myself to had I not gotten chosen.

I'm still sorting out where the modeling career will fit in to my life/purpose. I never set out to model, but since September I've experienced a lot of luck in that area. Yes I have flaws. I'm not enough of something that another person is, but from my standpoint things have worked. I've made mistakes, DC Urban Fashion Week, I've grown, and I've made it into shows that I thought I wouldn't have. If I were to be cut from the agency, I've already settled in my mind that I'm happy with who I've become. If I am asked to continue, I'm ready for the ride that they will put me on to help improve and shape my brand. Big up to Team ROE regardless of what happens. It's gettin' really real now.

Life & Times of Professor Curry:

I have a lot to say about that so look out for that segment real soon.

Apparently My Tests are Biased

2011-02-04T11:39:00.000-08:00

Now that I'm an educator things like these. . . . just watch.

In The Know: Are Tests Biased Against Students Who Don't Give A Shit?

Back In The Game

2011-01-30T15:35:00.001-08:00

After a weekend laying in bed, sick with the flu, I am back on my feet and fulfilling my professorial duties. I am grading a discussion board assignment that I gave both of my classes about a week ago. I am not impressed at all. As a matter of fact I'm a little ticked off that some of these students would turn in work that reflects badly on them. Don't get me wrong, quite a few students did well but when the distribution is from 90's and 80's to 50's and 40's what am I supposed to think.

All I can think to do is lay the smack down. We've got to fix this, This is really ticking me off.

More From @iamsoul

2011-01-30T11:19:00.000-08:00

The Madness of A Lost Society

2011-01-30T09:01:00.001-08:00

Tell me what you think.

Proof that America and the Justice System Does Not Give a F****

2011-01-26T16:54:00.000-08:00

When it comes to vulgarities, I'm really trying to change my speech. Swear words demonstrate a lack of vocabulary to express emotions--or so I've heard. It's unattractive and not a good fit for someone with moral character. However as a learned individual we have to be honest, direct and impactful. Some words help to accomplish that better than others at the end of the day.

This article was sent to me by my homie DJ LookUp. Peep his blog and his music.

A young mother from Akron, Ohio was put in jail and given 3 years probation for sending her kids to a school district that they did not live so that they could receive a better education. This is upholding education apartied at its finest. Dang didn't Obama just deliver a State of the Union Address about how important education for economic recovery? I have to apologize, which I'm really not, for not listening to his speech because I know that there are more powerful people than him that are keeping the country as jacked up as it is.

Even though I'm venting and using all kinds of emotive language, drawing inferences, and stating my opinion as fact, far be it for me to not do what I can in my sphere of influence to educate others and make a difference where I am. It is what it is family. Look for more posts in this series on "Proof that America and the Justice System Does Not Give a F****

Oscah's Vblog is Here

2011-01-26T11:21:00.000-08:00

Hopefully you've peeped my earlier blogs on Oscah. Well, gone are the days when I'll tell you about him. Now you can see for yourself. He just released a Vblog and is going to give the world an inside peek at his life as an independent artist, a husband, a student, and an all around foolish guy. When you know him like I know him you will get it. Oh yeah and there will be some great music to go along with it.
Follow him on Twitter @iamsoul and make sure you peep the MADSOUL Mixtape Vol 1.

That's it for now folks.

Life & Times of Professor Curry

2011-01-24T21:07:00.000-08:00

Here's a thought: How can I get my students to understand that anything I assign, put in the syllabus, or announce in class is NOT just a clever or witty suggestion nor a creative idea to be pondered? It's an assignment that I meant for you to do for a grade. Oh well, that's less papers for me to grade. Bring on the zeros.

Professor Curry

The Dilemma of Black Males Teaching Black Males

2011-01-24T19:43:00.000-08:00

I'm going to get a lot of flack for this but I really just want you all to feel me on this. As a black person in any environment where other black people are the minority, I'm going to notice and be drawn towards other black people that I may cross paths with. Whether it involves me only saying hello or progresses further than that, those moments are significant to me. As an educator, I look for opportunities to mentor young black males and help them along the path. With that said, I'm going to naturally flock or pay special attention to any black students, particularly black males, that I may have in my class.

So naturally that has happened but not in the way that I would hope. I have a young black male in on of my 8 week courses. Let me preface this by saying that I have yet to sit down and speak with this student. He portrays a demeanor as though he does not want to be in my class. I get a very deliberate lack of participation when it comes to him-- mind you this is a communication class where interaction is key. If there is group work he is off in the corner texting. When it comes time to present he leans on the desk when I ask him to stand and face the class. So far, I'm interpreting this as a lack of interest, which in my book is his personal problem. The problem that I am having is what do I do with a student that I want to see succeed--a black male student that I want to see succeed--but portrays behavior that demonstrates a lack of interest in even putting forth an effort.

This is all wishful thinking right now. The only thing I'm thinking in my mind is to really pull him to the side and express my sentiments, but I'm wondering if that is even warranted. If you pay for a class and want to be half ass with it then that is on you not me. I'm not here to be anyone's cheerleader who does not want to put the effort in. So I'm torn between those paradigms. Allowing him to step up and be an adult or taking it upon myself to try and guide him. You can almost say that my motivations are selfish. I mean you can call me out for putting all these assumptions upon the poor fellow just because I interpret his body language as saying "I don't care." Let me say his papers so far have not measured up to the professional level either. I don't know.

So family what do you think about this? This is the dilemma of being a black male educator and working with young black boys or young men that don't give a what. This is the college and professional level. At that point if you don't want to be there, why be there? This level requires much more personal involvement and investment. Not sure if I should leave dude alone or lend a helping hand out of concern.

When I think about how I succeeded, it was normally because I was proactive enough to seek out people to assist me. One point is that there are students that lack the confidence and self discipline to even reach out when necessary. Like I said family: I don't know.

Lazy Sunday

2011-01-23T19:31:00.000-08:00

The Steelers are going to the Super Bowl. How ya love that! Oscah released his MADSOUL Mixtape Vol 1 available for FREE Download while supplies last. I'm writing my first exam.I saw Marsha Ambrosius at The Park on Friday.

Let's start with Marsha. Two nights before the event, I found out that Marsha Ambrosius would be performing live at The Park. There actually was not much to that night. Honestly! The room was so packed that I had to go to the 4th floor to view the band from the balcony. I had a pretty good spot for several reasons. Number one, despite how packed it was, I could still look down and see everything. Secondly I was standing in front of her VIP section where I saw her stuffing her face the whole time. I thought it was funny. It was show time and everyone pushed their way to the front. This is where it got ignorant. We had some really loud chicks push there way in front of me and my crew. We were standing right behind the camera man, giving him enough room to do what he was hired to do. Well these chicks pushed their way up and did the thing that women do--flirt with the people on staff to secure their spot or make it look like they are cool with them. WOMP! WOMP! So not only did they push their way up but they were not cute and they were loud. How you be loud and not cute. Not a good combination for the feminine species.

Fellas, some of you all aren't any better. Now I like the Park because it's actually a place where you can converse. So I expect a different caliber of people there than I would at an all out sweat it out club. Remember the camera man? OK. So some dude reaches between where I am standing and taps the camera man on the shoulder. OK, they must know each other. He pushes his way up and has a 2 second conversation with the the camera man. Now he is standing in my way obstructing my view and my guests view. Then he leaves to get a drink. The clown comes back and starts feeling on the camera mans back. I fall back because I thought that must have been his boo or something. We are in DC. You never know. So basically I heard Marsha's performance but didn't see it, which completely ruined the experience. There was way too much conversation going on on the 4th floor. SMH

Here's a video of what took place right under my nose but I missed. I gotta admit, I was jammin' when she sang the demo version of Butterflies. Shout out to Briggs Management and Beny Blaq Entertainment

I'm this cat's biggest fan. Well, actually I can't be because his wife is. Still my boy Oscah has released his MADSOUL Mixtape Vol. 1. If you like soul music and are tired of the craziness on the radio then you may want to check him out. I'm a big fan of the tracks Don't Stop Your Love, I NEED U, So Far, and All The Way. Even though those are my favorites the mixtape will take you on a journey from start to finish. You can download the album while supplies last here or on YouTube. Also be sure to follow him @iamsoul and peep the Facebook Page .

The Steelers are going to the Super Bowl! Enough said.

I'm giving my first exam on Wednesday. Peep the next blogosode of Life & Times of Professor Curry where I will dish out all the dirty and the adventures of my new role. It's going to be bananas.

Unbelievable

2011-01-23T14:50:00.000-08:00

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The Life & Times of Professor Curry

2011-01-15T17:57:00.000-08:00

The Pittsburgh Steelers just beat the Baltimore Ravens 31-24 in the play offs now its on to the AFC Division Championship.

Last Sunday I got picked to model in DC Fashion Week 2011. Shout out to Ean Williams and Corjor International. Some of the photos from the model call were featured in Shy Magazine. I will be making an announcement concerning the modeling portion of my brand lol. Really I will, so sit tight.

So, I know everyone wants to hear about my adventures as a community college instructor. I survived my first week with plenty of stories to tell. There was not a night that I did not stay up late because I was preparing to lead the class. The funny thing is, since I got hired 3 weeks before the semester I did not really plan out my semester in full. So I'm pretty much going through the book with the students and getting comfortable with the material myself. It's crazy.

I kept running into technology problems in the classroom because NVCC decided to change my password and login and not inform me. Imagine being prepared to go through a PowerPoint in your class and none of the technology works. I'm so glad I know how to act cool when things don't pan out. I used my written notes to walk the students through the material.

Maybe I had high expectations but I'm baffled my students avoid public speaking situations at all costs. One of my requirements is that my students complete 2 impromptu speeches by the end of the semester. This is a chance where a student can give a quick speech on a topic of their choice with no pressure. Every opportunity I presented this week the kids just look around. I mean, c'mon you signed up for a Communications course. Don't you think you would need to COMMUNICATE. Public speaking is a big component of the course so we'll see. I know my 8-week class doesn't have time to fool around because before they know it, the class will be over.

Oh and I also screwed myself when I gave a writing assignment. The papers that I got is proof that public schools will do whatever it takes to get the kids out. Now here they are at the college level writing run-on sentences, using fragments, writing like they talk and falling victim to a bunch of mistakes that could easily be fixed if they just read over their work before handing it in. I was up grading papers and cussing because the writer in me couldn't take it.

I guess I have my work cut out for me. Lord help! I

Shout out to U.N.I Clothing Co. and Profound Thought who are living it up in Nashville at the Stellar Awards. My homie, Profound Thought is performing at the Urban Soul Cafe as a part of the tribute to American Gospel singer, Lashun Pace. The team definitely has some awesome things in store. I can't wait to tell you about it. Peep the latest design and get at us on Facebook: U.N.I Clothing Co., follow us on Twitter @uniclothingco or connect with our CEO, Brian Smithen on tumblr: mruni.tumblr.com.

Also be on the look out for my brother Minister D. Jakolby Washington who is in the studio now finishing up his first project with JudahLYFE Ministries. Be on the look out for the first single "Shower Your Rain" from the live recording Freedom to Worship. Here's a sneak peak of the single. Also be sure to catch him every Monday at 7 p.m. as he hosts JudahLYFE, a praise and worship radio show. My brother is making moves yall.

Today in World Star Hip Hop News

2011-01-06T14:13:00.000-08:00

An uncle uses unusual discipline to prevent nephew from portraying thug-like persona on Facebook

Contractors pay close attention to your instructions, otherwise this will happen. Dang, at least Pittsburgh has a good football team.

What Do You Think?

2011-01-06T09:08:00.000-08:00

Network was released in 1976 and funny how even then it was ahead of it's time.

Stunned But Reflecting

2010-12-24T22:13:00.000-08:00

Some clown stole my car the day before Christmas Eve. I was an hour and a half away from where I live but luckily I had family in the area where I got stranded. I'm so pissed off that all I can do is laugh. I'm laughing out of shock, embarassment, and just overall stupor as to why someone would go to such a length to do that. It's crazy fam.

I couldn't get my mind off of it for most of the day except when I took an extended nap hoping to just wake up Christmas morning. Now it's early Christmas morning and the only reason I'm up is because my family got the sudden urge to clean everything and paint walls. I got suckered into painting a wall to do something to help out. When I realized it was after 11:30 pm I cut that project short. Here I am trying to escape all the reasons why 2010 sucked for me. Instead of cry about it in my blog, considering I'm still pissed as hell about the car and probably will be at the mention of it, I'm going to divert my emotions by highlighting the things that made 2010 worth the struggle.

Learning about the music business: It's been cool getting to know Mike Winans and having someone to bounce my ideas off of. I'm proud of myself for taking the initiative to learn what to do with my songs once they hit full production. I'm not naive about the business and this has given me negotiating power and overall I now have a goal to start a business that includes songwriting. I wish I would have done this a long time ago but this year I was open and available.

Being an entreprenuer: Music only scratched the surface. I've had the opportunity to assist with other businesses and this has made me a little more confident in going into business for myself because of my skills.

My teaching talents confirmed: NYLF was crazy but looking back on it, I had an amazing time. It's made me very confident in teaching in a classroom. To get a job offer to teach at a community college has been somethign that I've been looking for. Life at the youth center was mundane and I hated a good portion of it, but I also enjoyed more than what I hated. Let me rethink that statement. I learned to focus on what I loved about it so that made it worth it. Also, how can I forget the Ready or Not Retreat in Jersey. I had a great time leading the discussion group for the young adults. Also working with the youth choir gave me an opportunity to lead youth and adults to coordinate the music. Pretty good experience if I don't say so for myself.

Getting comfortable with DC: I hated DC. I didn't know DC all too well, but I hated it when I first came back home. A year later and now I look for every excuse to go to DC. I love U Street and the Chinatown areas and can't wait to explore more--as if I haven't already. It all confirms the fact that I am a man of the city.

I'm getting sleepy so look forward to a more detailed list. That just might put me in brighter spirits. I really hope this car jacker gets caught and that my car gets found or some good comes out of this. Merry Christmas fam.

Don't Ask Don't Tell Is Dead

2010-12-22T18:36:00.001-08:00

I'm not sure if I'm ready to go in on this but by watching highlights of President Obama signing the bill to repeal Don't Ask Don't Tell makes my opinion all the more timely. I actually have two points that I want to make but I'll start there.

As I express my opinion I also invite conversation and other opinions so please comment. As a heterosexual male that has never been in the military, for obvious reasons, I never really understood the complexity of Don't Ask Don't Tell. Serving in the military is your job and with any job there are professional standards. I never really saw how revealing your sexual orientation was that trivial that it would be opposed. I'm not trying to sound ignorant but like any job and the people I work with there are just things that I don't reveal about myself to those I work with. Maybe I'm being too simplistic in my thinking, but I don't see how one's sexual orientation could not fit into one of those things. Who you are and what you do in the confines of your home are between you and your significant other. Why would it matter if you don't tell anyone your sexual preference?

Since my beliefs shape who I am and how I view the world I must also indicate that I am a believing Christian that faithfully practices my faith. Homosexuality is a complex issue because it is an orientation that impacts one's identity and I think because those that identify as such have traditionally been marginalized, isolated and misunderstood it is easy to simplify their experience. Even still I've always looked at Don't Ask Don't Tell as something easy enough to accomplish.

I say all this to welcome an opinion to help me understand how serious it really is to keep your sexual orientation as one of those things you just have to tell someone. Like I said, in a profession you are hired to do a job. Do the job why does it matter if you tell people the full story about you. Watch who you trust and make sure that if you do reveal something about you that you are willing to accept the consequence. I guess the recent repeal if it makes it through--Obama isn't the final say--protects homosexuals if they do reveal themselves. I just answered my own question but either way in today's day and age you don't even have to ask or tell to know if someone is homosexual. Not saying it is a bad thing but I've lived in the city long enough and the ones I suspect always are. I take that back but some of you know what I'm saying. I'm not opposed to civil rights in terms of employment,

What I am opposed to is clearly depicted in an opinion piece that I read last weekend about how the term hate speech is being used to undermine certain values when in opposition to gay rights. The chairman of a university department declines to help promote an LGBTQ film and is denounced by the university's chancellor claiming that his response warrants action from the Hate and Bias Incident Response Team. Back in April, Christian group at a California law school that was denied campus recognition because it went against the university's nondiscrimination policy. The group would not allow gays or nonbelievers to serve in leadership because it went against the core values of the group. The Supreme Court ruled against the Christian group. The article argues that there is a determined effort to look at anything that supports views in opposition to same-sex marriage or anything oriented toward gay rights as an expresion of hate and not to be tolerated.

The article hits home for me because as a practicing Christian believer and as a person I felt like someone finally got it. One groups civil rights should never come at the expense of another's but it happens. One individual should be able to healthily and respectfully disagree with another's values without having action taken against them. We all have values and things that define who we are and shape how we view the world but one's ability to speak in accord with their values should never come at the expense of another. No authority should be more willing to penalize one group over another, but it's happening. At the end of the day I'm glad that someone spoke out for the other side. I welcome continued conversation on this. These are my thoughts so let's talk

I Hate Sales People

2010-12-22T12:39:00.000-08:00

Among the things that I cannot stand, and there are plenty, being solicited is the worst. I absolutely hate when people try to sell me stuff. It goes hand in hand with my abhoration of wasting my time, which will turn me livid. So why am I talking about this you ask? Well, with Christmas a few days away I visited the mall and had a particular moment that confirmed how much I hate when people try to sell me stuff and another reminder why I avoid shopping on a certain side of that particular mall.

So research has confirmed that you are more likely to comply with an attractive person rather than a less attractive person. This one lotion stand has definitely picked up on this concept because every last one of their reps are probably some of the most gorgeous women in the mall. However for me, you can be bangin' with a body like heaven but depending on how you annoy me there is no going back.

So I'm shopping for some family members and I decide to run over to the food court get a few of the free chicken that the Asian restaurants give away then walk back to proceed with my shopping. That is when I remembered the infamous lotion stand. Now I haven't been to this particular mall since the summer so the likelihood of me forgetting about this beautiful distraction--emphasis on distraction--was high. But while I was a few feet away I remembered but it was too late. I was in route.

Now these chicks are aggressive. If one spots you and you blow her off two more will come from around the corner and say something clever to try to get you to stop. You can be 5 feet away from the cart they will still do their best to keep the conversation going. So as I'm approaching the cart I speed up just a bit. Of course one rep asks if I want to try the lotion. Now in a matter of seconds, knowing that I been through this before and do not want to waste my time or her time because I have no need for this lotion whatsoever, I entertain the fact of her flirting with me and volunteering to caress my arm with this lotion. Nothing wrong with that but its all futile. She doesn't want me she wants my money and all the encounter will do is waste mine and her time. Sorry but the fantasizing just isn't worth it. Yes I can turn on the charm and direct the conversation elsewhere because these reps on a rating of looks scale between 9 and 10. But the principle is that I hate when people sell stuff to me and having this particular female feel me up, which is a clear exaggeration, just was not that serious.

So in a matter of miliseconds after I process this--since that is the way things play out in my head--I respectfully say no. When someone speaks to me it is my principle to speak back politely. So I say no to the first rep take a few steps another rep calls out to me and another steps in front of me and says she has a question for me. So I'm dodging these reps. Another says, "Hey I like your dreads!" I say, "Thanks, I like your hair too." She cunningly asks me to come over. I already know the intention so I smile back and keep it pushing.

Hat's off to the business owner for being very creative in his sales tactics. Nervous about walking back and passing that same kiosk, I head that way because my car is parked in that area. Luckily they got some other unsuspecting victims to stop and pay attention to their nonsense sales tactics. You can say whatever, I just really hate when people try to sell me stuff. I'm cringing right now just thinking about it.

That's my story. Tune in next time as I deliberate on a few articles I've read this week.

My Thoughts

2010-12-20T21:22:00.001-08:00

I've had this blog for about 2 years and have yet to scratch the surface of who I am and what I'm about. So today, in a very random order, I'd like to share information that I don't generally think to share on this blog.

When it comes to NFL I'm a Pittsburgh Steelers fan. It's a little odd because I have never been to Pittsburgh, it was just a choice I made and a team that I stuck with. So Sunday night, we played the Jets and other than the times we played Baltimore I was really looking forward to this one. Just my luck my family decides to go to a restaurant during 5 minutes into the second quarter. Luckily we go to one with a TV in range. Most of you know the outcome of that game but 10 minutes left in the final quarter and New York gets the field goal and the score is 20-17 New York. My parents decide it's time to leave since we all rode together. We live about 5 minutes away. My mom decides to go to Target to pick up some Christmas cards. In the words of Ed Lover . . . C'mon Son. Why Now? Despite my attempts to get dropped off at home we mosied on over to Target. I don't get to see how the game ends and I'm forced to find out via espn.go.com SMH. Maybe if I was at home we would have won this instead New York wins at Pittsburgh and I'm sick to my stomach. I never want to settle but I am content that we can continue our lead in the AFC North division. I digress.

So during my families excursion to Target, after 20 minutes of filling the basket up, someone announces over the intercom that there is an emergency and that everyone is to head to the exit immediately. Emergencies are always the time when big people and folks in electric shopping cards or whatever you call them decide to get in the way. I get outside and a cop orders everyone to get away from the building as quickly as possible. Come to find out there was a bomb threat. Get home the Steelers lost. Still bitter about that game. My sister who was working at the very Target we left comes home 2 hours later. She boasts about being paid to sit in her car for two hours because her job wouldn't let the employees leave nor were they able to resume work. This is where my sister and I greatly differ because I deem being held hostage on my job when I clearly can't work given the circumstance is a complete waste of my time and my brain power. I would have been ticked off and I would have driven home. That's just me.

Real quick Alexandria City Public Schools has hired a consultant to help them build their image. Alan Hilburg the guy that worked on a Wendy's campaign back in the '80's and most notable for helping to build Don Imus' reputation after the "Nappy-headed hoes incident," has been hired to work with the school system. What I got from the article is that he's looking to build relationships with outside businesses and stakeholders--basically private funds--to aid in this effort. What got me was that they compared it to former Chancellor of DC Public Schools, Michelle Rhee, and her use of raising private funding to go toward the school. Awesome effort but not the best person to be compared to. The chick fired everyone and ticked off a lot of people and when the new administration came she was out. Enough of my opinion, my concern is really for the youth in the system. I pray that somehow whatever image of ACPS this guy builds in the public mind can be supported by what is really happening in the lives of the youth that move through that institution. I really hope that conditions are improved on the inside and that the youth are educationally enriched to go along with whatever campaign this consultant puts forth.

Speaking of support and school systems, an $100,000 award given by AARP to McKinley Technology High School in DC is missing and Principal David Pinder, who according to the reporter "administers a total school budget of about $4.2 million" would not comment or answer e-mails on this matter. I know what I just said would lead you to believe that he knows something. Actually even a spokesperson for the school said that an investigation is taking place so no one will comment until everything is cleared up. Once again, in the words of Ed Lover. . . C'mon Son. Are you telling me that $100,000 just went up and missing?

Somebody knows where that money is and it upsets me that administrations can be so grimey. I mean shoot, that's what I believe the real issue is with this "recession." Oh those in charge know where the money is and they are not telling any of the common people. So in the case of the students at McKinley Tech, they won't be able to take advantage of the money that they worked hard to get from all their community service. It's a shame.

Meet me back, same place, at whatever time I decide so I can go in on this Don't Ask Don't Tell repeal and so that I can intelligently comment in the affirmative on an article discussing how the term "hate speech" is being used to marginalize and undermine anything that disagrees with homosexual anything.

That's Professor Curry To You

2010-12-20T15:07:00.000-08:00

I'm not a professor exactly or even close but I did accept an offer to be an Adjunct Communication Faculty at Northern VA Community College. I got a call from the Assistant Dean of the department and by the end of the conversation I got an offer to start teaching in January. This officially ends my perpetual streak of taking on mindless/purposeless jobs just to get by. Praise God it wasn't that much of a wait. I mean yes, I'll be waiting for that paycheck but this is a good start. It's a really good start and I'm excited because one of my goals for 2011 was to take advantage of opportunities to teach.

I filled out all my paper work today and picked up a copy of the textbook that I'll be using. I'll bask in the glory of the accomplishment for a few days before I consider how I only have 3 weeks to create a preliminary course schedule. One thing I'll take into account is how much I hate it when instructors lecture the whole hour and change. I'm so freakin' ADD so if lectures get on my nerves I can assure you that I will not be doing such for my own course.

I almost want to panic because someone is trusting me to do this. This is crazy but somebody's got to do it.

On Top Rank Vintage

2010-12-16T16:51:00.001-08:00

Last night I allowed two perfectly good tickets to one of the hottest events of the year go to waste. To Justin Young and the team at ReadySetDC, I apologize. I have very unreliable transportation and the very night I wanted to go out it got even more unreliable. I was really looking forward to meeting the team. Either way congrations on the website relaunch. I guess that means all my posts that involve ReadySetDC's past events will be broken links. GREAT!

Speaking of website relaunch, Top Rank Vintage launched their website early this morning and I'm excited that I can feature another unique designer on my blog. The brand specializes in authentic military style vintage clothing, which is unique because these pieces date back as far as the 1950's and are shipped in from Europe. That's true vintage ain't it.

I met the team in charge of this collection at DC Urban Fashion Week, which was one good thing that happened out of that show. SMH. I had a good conversation with the leaders Yvette and Mohamed, plus I was really digging their line, so I kept in touch. Here's a few pics of the coat and long sleeve I got to rock by them. To add to that shout out to Philbert Photos and Cat Walk Studioz for the bangin' photo work.

I got a chance to talk to Mohamed recently as he was putting the final touches up on the website and dude was mad excited. I can talk about the website all day and the clothing line but go see for yourself. www.toprankvintage.com. In addition to that visit the Facebook page and see pics of their most recent photo shoots. Take advantage of their winter where all styles are 25% off from now until Christmas Day. Command Your Style

For the Love of DC 2.0

2010-12-14T15:18:00.000-08:00

ReadySetDC is one of my favorite social networks. Well it's not even a social network but I love the events that they put on. So guess what?

I just won tickets to their official relaunch For the Love of DC 2.0. They were giving away tickets for guests that commented on their blog. I guess my comment was the best so I get to party with them tomorrow night @ District. I look forward to it. However, since the wheel popped off my car last Sunday I've been out of luck as far as getting a ride. I'll work something out.

Independently Major

2010-12-13T21:12:00.000-08:00

So a week ago I found a tweet, or better yet a retweet, by someone who's Twitter name escapes me at the moment, but the retweet was about PJ Morton's new Mixtape Independently Major which available for a free download on his bandcamp page. I love PJ Morton's music and I love free stuff so I did not hesitate to download it. I have barely sunk my teeth into the album but with this artist you can always expect to get something simple, catchy and unique.

The album includes autotune infused remakes of 3rd Degree, I Need Your Love and Don't Ever Leave which are found on previous albums. In my opinion I think that including new versions of those tracks serve as a clever way to make the music sound new. However die hard fans that support his shows it almost appears as a sick joke. I prefer the pure unadulterated PJ Morton sound so I hope he does not include any autotune in his upcoming and future projects.

Go on and download the mixtape while supplies last but make sure you support all of his previous and upcoming albums. I'll leave you with some video footage of his live show in DC last summer.

The Intro

This Feeling

A Bad Relationship Comes To An End

2010-12-13T09:42:00.001-08:00

I used to wonder why smart people stay in bad relationships. After these past few months, maybe less, I completely understand why. The reason is because that relationship provides them with some benefit that they can't seem to get anywhere else. So it is with people that HATE their jobs with a passion but stay because they have bills to pay. The diplomatic person stays until they find something else, but in these times it takes longer to find something else than one would imagine to expect.

So for the past two months I've worked part-time doing tasks that were so out of character and out of purpose that I was changing into a different person. When you are generally a cheerful person and revert to cussing everyone out that upsets you, this is clear indication that something is wrong. This is what happened to me.

I said in previous blogs that I knew this relationship would be ending soon. I was not joking. Either I was going to end it myself or circumstance would have brought it about. Luckily both happened. Now let's look back to my earlier blog talking about the call the relationship ended exactly how it began--with me telling him he was being disrespectful and unprofessional, and me getting the cuss out by the great Reverend.

Our team was doing a press release on an organization under investigation for an unethical practice. Let's keep in mind that this incident was in the media 3 months prior, so with our press release lacking timeliness it could be considered irrelevant. Either way, he thought it was expedient to call the organization and ask them if one of their reps was the person who was a part of what they were being accused of. I thought we should have contacted a third party because no organization is required to release that type of information neither will they politely volunteer information like that to a stranger.

So I call and try to be polite as I can to see if this particular person was a member of this organization. The Reverend yells at me and says I'm doing it wrong so I pass him my phone which I pay bills on and sit back to observe his approach. His approach involves yelling at the receptionist asking if so and so is the man alledgedly being accused of the unethical practice. He informs the receptionist to not play games with him and forcefully tells her to tell him if this is the person. I hear her through the phone yelling back at him saying that he does not have to be disrespectful and she puts him on hold. He looks at me saying that when he does things he gets results and that I just don't get it. I look at him and say "Your way of doing things is very disrespectful. You do realize that I can take that phone out of your hand right now." I remind him that I heard the girl through the phone saying that he was being disrespectful to her. He hangs up the phone and from The great Reverend's sanctified mouth he say "This is just bullshit. It's all bullshit." I look at him amazed saying "Sir why are you cursuing." That is when he tells me I'm fired and I was not even mad that he got to me before I could get to him. With a sigh of relief he keeps me there for an extra hour to fill out the contract that I should have gotten my first day of working.

One down one more to go. I put in my two weeks at the retail place I was working at. I realized that I was not cut out to do that type of work. The work was very mindless and unfulfilling and I was not a fan of working with a supervisor that comes into work grumpy. Grumpiness is contagious and the more I stood in that store the more I was about to loose my mind. The only thing I looked forward to was 11:00 a.m. when I left the store.

I got a call yesterday thinking that they were calling me into work but instead the store manager informed me that they needed to cut payroll so I did not have to fulfill my last week of work. WHOOO HOOO. Yeah that was one check I was depending on but the sweet taste of sleeping in to recover from these past two months of . . . I don't know what I'd call it but it feels good. So now with my bank account about to reach E, I'm at home strategizing how I will get to where I want to be and that involves being in a job where I can actually grow. It involves being in a place that I wouldn't mind staying late and taking on extra work because I'm being compensated and I love my team. Don't get me wrong, I met some good people in the course of the two months but I've also met some horrible leaders that didn't give a crap about me but used me to fulfill their own purposes. Psshh and if I sound like a crying baby it is what it is. We all have our limits and our boundaries. We should all have clear guidelines on how we should be treated and how we treat others.

So, I've learned that I should not allow money to be my only motivation to work. In the past my motivation has been money coupled with the opportunity for growth, learning, personal fulfillment, and being around great people that also love what they do. I can't settle for anything less than that. I had a friend tell me flat out that I was being pimped and that I took on the ho mentality, which is true. So now that I'm out of those relationships I can rest easy and get back to who I am.

P.S. I had a great interview with KEMAC last Wednesday. Next on the agenda: moving to Maryland.

How It Went

2010-12-11T21:02:00.000-08:00

(Photos used courtesy of the Revamp.com Team)

I really want to go to sleep right now, but if I don't do this now it'll take me another three weeks until I am focused to speak on this. Beyond Words Fashion and Art Show was an experience! I say that because as a model you are backstage the whole time waiting for the moment that you walk out. You don't really get to mingle because you have to be in place for whatever your team will need. Most of the time, or atleast in the 4 shows I've done, there has never been any food for the models.

Model Lesson # 65: Eat before you arrive.

The show went pretty well. I got to model for Andrew Nowell Menswear's 2011 collection, which I really wanted to do since I heard about his line. His collection is right up my alley. When it comes to modeling in shows, very few of the things I've worn have actually been things that I would wear on the regular. It was good to connect with a designer that I can speak positively about their collection.

The night was also cool because Righteous Ones Entertainment Agency icons Harley Morgan and Terrance Payton came out to the show. I joked with them before the show saying that since I knew they would be in the building I couldn't eff up. It was good to have them there and it was good to get encouragement from two people that I see as knowing their ish when it comes to the industry in DC. So if they like it then I definitely like it.

I was so ready to get out of there that I didn't even notice that Washington Redskins running back Clinton Portis was in the building along with Kris Jenkins of the New York Jets.

Other than that, peep the Facebook fan page at Andrew Nowell Menswear Collection. Here's another article about the event. Since I'm feeling myself so much right now, below are a few pics of what I modeled. Holding that bag was pretty annoying and the runway was so thin that I had to avoid hitting the next person as they walked out. Shout out to Phil Kogan, Images by McCoy , Shutterbloom and the Revamp.com Team for the bangin' photos.

Here's a video of Andrew's previous collection along with an interview with the icon himself. Enjoy!

Twelve Two Twenty Ten

2010-12-02T19:51:00.000-08:00

Twelve Two Twenty Ten. 12-2-2010 is the day that I found out that I will be a featured model in the Beyond Words Fashion & Art Show. In my last blog I said that I was waiting to hear back from them and that if I was in it, it would be the most expensive show to date. Well I made the cut and they want to work with me.

I had been chillin' all week checking my e-mail frequently to see if they responded to me. Now that I got the word I'm on go. The show is next Friday, Dec 10, 2010 at the Washington Design Center in association with the Lollipop Kids Foundation (LPK), a charity that supports children with disabilities. So with that said I'm going to hop on this P90X Ab Ripper and try to get as tone as I possibly can to prepare. Deuces!

Be sure to check out the Washington Design Center's blog.

Post 200

2010-12-01T19:08:00.000-08:00

Wow after this post I'll be at post #200. This is call for a celebration doesnt it. Anybody in?

I've been waiting all week to carve out some time to tell you about my adventures and now I'm coming short on words. I'll work on being in the mood to write and share. The past two weeks were very crazy for me. I say crazy because I found myself in a place where I lost so much motivation. I have joined the 70% of Americans that hate their jobs. Ask me where I got that number from: I made it up. I'm not cut out for the mindlessness of retail and will be ending what I thought. . . I don't know what I was thinking when I applied. After doing the calculations and seeing that I get $100 for 16 hours of work, not to mention work that any brainless person could do, I realize that this relationship is not worth the time.

So moving on to another part time job. I'll say that the boss and I got off on the wrong foot. I mean, how many employees start a new job by telling the employer what they are not going to do. I figured that if I was going to only get paid for a certain amount of hours and no more then I'll make sure that once the clock stops so does my work. If you call me outside of those hours, I'm not obliged to conceed. I think clarifying my employers expectations and mine will serve both of us well. So far I have been so concerned about being taken advantage of that I've come off wrong. I'm still growing yall.

On a lighter note the modeling is going well. I'm learning which opportunities to pursue and which ones to not pursue. In two months I've been in 3 shows and I'm working on a 4th. This coming show, which I auditioned for and am waiting to find out if I've made the cut, would be the most expensive to date. Tickets are selling for $75. I had trouble getting people to come to the $15 and $20 shows, so that's pretty much a bust lol.

I'm going to focus on building my photo repertoire. The last show I did, I connected with a designer that said they'd use me for a shoot. This is so crazy because I never thought I'd be interested. Now I'm running full speed ahead. I tend to do that. As I reflect modeling is doign a lot to develop me personally. Doing photoshoots and runway is pretty much acting in a non speaking. You become a character according to what the designer wants. In an industry that is based on how you look it's real easy to get discouraged by the things you can't change. However it's teaching me to pick my face up and keep it moving.

It's also teaching me to be professional working with people of alternative lifestyles. Well actually I been learning that but this time I am all the more. Modeling is a creative field that is defined by who you are working for on the project. Because of this I drew my lines early on as far as the type of work that I will and will not do. My advice to anyone that wants to get into the entertainment/creative field, whether for fun or as an entreprenuer, decide what type of work does and does not characterize your personal brand. Creative people have some of the craziest demeanors so be professional and treat your work like a business. Even as I go to more of these events and compare myself to the other models, I see myself as more of a businessman than a full-time model.

Also get comfortable with your body and seeing all the models you work with in a show naked. It's a part of the territory and it's hard work. Those are my thoughts.